first things first.... i think u all should have notice 2 comments by nap and NI NI... thanks alot! i really appreciate that console~! ahhahaha but ....
to HIM :
dun be hurt k!? lets forgeyt everything bahz! i know u've already no feeling towards this friendship! anyway, if it hurts u- sorry.
hello blog.... new day, new hope.. hmm... today is qutie a fun day actually!
MEI MEI called mi early in the morning to WAKE mi up ! hahaha no lah
coz she mistaken an unknown caller as mi..... aniway, thanks mei mei for waking me up! if not i'll be late for meeting! LOL!
OH! my contact lens has a HOLE! so pain@!!!!!!!!! no wonder!
aniway, today i got meeting for OCIP! VERY BUSY AH!!!!!!! hahaha i'm in cultural !!!! so we are in charge of song and dance - pretty much of my hobby!
anyway, i haven eaten AT ALL!! so i'm dam hungry during the meeting although mei mei and MR NG did bought some bun and bread! haha thanks !
my head hurts coz i m STILL HUNGRY!!! so i keep "blowing" seow joo to finish her meeting! ahhaha anyway, i wanted to go sing K box with NI NI! hahahah so so so fun! so, i went to ang mo kio!! BUT that winnie ah!!!!!! she never answer my call lo!!!!! i gave her 15 miss call!!!!! 15 !!!!!!! hahahhahah i call untill a bit "PAEK CHET" aka impatient coz i need to know where she is to find her ma... aniway, she pic up her phone and finally realise that i'm calling ! hahahahah oh! her pri sch friend is there too! from the phone i already can hear her laughter ECHO! hahahhahaso fun! anyway, we sang ! and sang and remember unhappy moments! never mind! i'm strong ! STRONGER !!!!i can do it ! andway i m used to it le la!
JIA YOU! her friend is very fun too! but dunno y keep laughing! hahahahah LOL! i sing alot of soongs! LUCKILY NEVER CRY!!!!! not worth ito cry hor( right? nap and NI NI!? ) O.O
hahaha....................
wait! then i went home and ke yun called! hahahah she is sick!!! she vomited 4 times yesterday!!!! then she asked mi to call her at 10 coz she wanna watch the show - ren wo au you! argh! y everyone is glued to that show? nice mea?
swim swim swim!eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!~
anyway, i called her at 10! the conversation wasn't that smooth as i thought it would be... maybe becoz she is sick lo..... so to substain the converstation, i told her abt mi and gavin's situation!!!! i know initally that she dislike to hear abt mi and him... i duno y , she always find mi and pig is very childish... she always use childish to discribe mi and pig (if i tell her anything abt us la) i mean , come 'on, its onli a friendship! i felt very uncomfortable telling it to her, just dunno y , but i still think that she need to know ( as a friend la)... so i did tell her.. and as i know andpredicted, she wanted to say that i m finding problem to myself !! she always "scold" or , if i use a euphermisim, lecture mi with that phrase- "u always finding problem to urself "
ok loz.. she wanted to tell mi that phrase again .... but i tell her DUN TELL MI!!!!! coz i know wat she is going to say le ma.... very sad to hear that de lea!!! i mean .. i dunno... maybe she is sick ..so she never really go and care abt my feeling la..i dunoo..
but wat hurt mi most is that she ( and on behalf of her sis ) questioned my sexuality!!!!!she says y i m so good to that pig.. she thinks that i "like " him!
PLEASE LAH! ARGH!!!!!!!!!
i mean ........ ARGH! i m just tryin to be good to every one , or those that deserve it ma..... i talk abt him coz i care, not coz i LOVE .... ijust feel sad abt it , wanna share ma.....i mean , i know most MOST guys dun talk things out and treat other guys that good.... but i m different! VARIATION!!!!!!!
I think i ONCE treasure this FRIENDSHIP.... every FRIENDSHIP is like a "relationship' just like ,mi and gavin,- the feeling is the same for eg,
mi and ke yun, (er correction, not so -- now... HE HE HE HE HE (",)
mi and jacklynn,
mi and my 04s1D gang-nap , ni ni and my pw group (NY071),
mi and my ZHU ZHU club !!!!
I LOVE THEM ALL!!! I LOVE THEM ALL!!... coz i care! i show my care out! there is no wrong with it!!!
I M STRAIGHT !!!!!
its onli that i dun really tell people WHO I LIKE!
DUN ASK MI AGAIN!.....hai~! this is not e first time le!!! come'on! yes, i may not seems as though i mind.. but i do! i m a person , with pride too! i dun blame anione! i really dun! sorry if i offend anione.. i mean ...... i m just sad lo! coz people BY RIGHT see mi as a
POTENTIAL "gay" ....
BUT I M NOT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun force mi pls! since young (like pri 3) people is making fun of mi le! i always seems as though i dun mind! they bully mi,. beat mi, make fun of mi.........though the number of BULLIES has signicficantly decreased.... but the hurt for every attack is equally painful! ( dun get things worng , i dun blame anione ok? )
wat can i do?
i dun choose to behave like that! i change alot le ok!!!!!!!!!!
its biological fault !!!!!!!
ok sorry for all the craping!
after all.. its mi... i m YIT HANN!
love,
straight,
yit hann!
