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Saturday, July 03, 2004

PIG in action. THANKS BRO !

ITS A PIA DAY !! yes ... i mean PIA Pig In Action DAY ! hahhaha
yesterday, Bro pig saw the blog i recently put up. i really didn't expect him to see it. i was... not really call SHOCK but i was surprise ba. did expect him to see it so fast... hahaha anyway, i got to take back my words ( or rather my TEXT ) that i wrote in the previous BLOG. its really not PIG's fault! its my fault la... i've gone out of my mind! yesterday i just fail to see the reality. i was blinded by my anger! pig has always tried his best to be there for mi... but its usually because he is still young and still not not able to achieve the same freedom as i do, its always inevitable ( explaination : inevitable = cannot be avoided ) that he can't be there for mi. its not that he dun wanna be there for mi... but i can't be there... and i really dun mind and dun blame him for that! but pig, i do hope that u can pass this spirit of concern to other friends , aquaintances and needy ... do help them if they need some listening ears or a helping hand!

HE did mi proud! ahahah coz one day ( i forget when le ). We pass by an old lady selling tissus paper outside the library, near the road. She was singing some odd tune while selling. i've decided to callit - THE tissue paper SONG. anyway.. no one cares abt her... NO ONE! but PIG! he gave mi a dollar and ask mi to buy from her 3 packets of tissue! haha i'm so proud of him! MOO!

ok back to today !

today i m really having my LAST paper - the listening comprehension paper ( chinese ). in the morning, when i reached school.. i couldn't regconise anibody that i know... except that there is a figure outside LT4 that look abit familiar. i walk nearer,moo!! its ANGELA ! hahah ( she is an ASEAN SCHOLAR from malaysia that was posted in our class for 1 day onli.. but we became very very very good friend within an hour or so) this is because.. she knows my cousin !!! WEI QI !!! hahaha wat a small world!!! it is even smaller when she told mi today that her mother actually was a friend of my MUM aas they came from the same hometown!( pekan nanas)!!!! WAT A EVEN SMALLER WORLD !!!!! SMALL TILL!!!!!!
hahahaha we really have lotsa common topic to talk abt! cute gal! we chated abt NS in malaysia. and her friend ( another asean scholar i suppose who also went through the NS ) join us.. hmmm i wonder wats his name.... haha hope to know them more! anyway.. i really have a nice time chating with them! ahaha cool people! we are all malaysian! anyway.. she is going back to malaysia ( KOTA TINGGI )after the exam! have a nice journey ANGELA !

hmm..the exam was tough .. i think i got alot ( or if i choose to use a eupherism ) SOME wrong ! hahaha after exam ... the gang discusse abt the CIP of the DIVA football thingy. hmm.... in the end , we no need to go to serve CIP! hai! GOOD !we went to the seragoon market to have our dinner. JIA YU told us that she is most probably leaving!!! WAT !!!!! ai yO! i wanna leave too! ITS ALL THAT SPERM'S ........okokok!! RELAX yit hann! relax.... ok, i've decided not to bring yesterday's topic up again! RELAX !!!!!! i wanna live long!!!

anyway... ... i ate the CICKEN FEET NOODLE ! which the stall holder decided to call it PHONIEX's claw ! EUPHERISM again! hahaha this world is full of BULL SHIT ! hahaha. anyway!!!!!! winne and i got to rush back tos chool for the stupid student council's invertigture.! ( i dunno how to spell it) crap. hahah its ok la.. got to meet our drama club's friends! haha i was initially posted to the CARPARK near the OLD CANTEEN ! haha arh! BULL SHIT location! ahah but in the end .. due to terry's absent, i got to do it in the HALL! haha thats cooL! but hope terry dun get the wrong idea lol! MOO!
well... the 4 ppl that guard the hall must stay back... aiyo! i've aready make arrangement with winne to accompany her and NAPALIE to fareast to shop for their bro/BF 's birthday gift! hahah hmm winne went first .... coz they say it will last till 1pm ...agar agar .. buti nt he end.. is tay back less than 15 min . they say we can be dismissed!
then i went to find them.. infact i reached there first.while waiting .. i mlistening to a cd that jacklynn had burnt for mi. sad! very sad.. memories flashes back.. my whoole face change.. when winne they all arrived .. they thought i was angry with them .. i wasn't.... coz i m just sad abt this SUNKEN SHIP! well.. anyway.. we shoopped for a while and then we spotted a shop ahhaha FUNNY SHOP! its called - THE NEW WOLD ORDER ( NWO ) hahaha its a very funny shop that sell t-shirts with FUNKY design... winne and nap bought the PIG shirt as their gift. PIG... isn't that word familiar ? it makes u think of BORTHER PIG aka gavin chong! hahaha

i sms bro and ask if he wants the PIG shirt or not. its cute. i wanna buy one with the word - BEAR ! haha but i onli got $20 and each shirt cost $19.90.which means i onli can buy one ! :( so sad! NO! DUN EVEN THINK ABOUT TOUCHING MY ATM CARD! hahaha its for emergency... if thats an emergency .. then i dunno wat is non-emergency. haha dun get it? nvm! in the end. i bought a BLACK pig shirt gor brother chong... igive him for free de... i know he no money to buy ma... just give him loz... no reason y not. hahaha he is my bro ma !!! hahaaha ! BIG bro give small BRO something no need reason one!just wanna make him happy! ahahaha ( my blood bro never get a shirt from mi! not even a packet of tissue! coz i hate my blood brother ! ) hahahah so bro pig.. se how lucky u are ! hahahhaah jking la!

hmm... now , i onli got $2+ in my wallet..after i buy the shirt.. BROTHER pig also ask mi to go library.. he seldom take the initaitive to ask mi out.. so i really must go out with him loz! haha anyway i stil can go out with the gang the next time... and my gang - eg nap, winne etc are really fun ppl to be with! hahahaha cooL! BRO PIG! HERE I COME ! 2.30pm at wdl control! hahah! moo! in hte end we were both late! YIT HANN is very hungry and onli got $2 to last till monday@!!!!!! TILL MONDAY !!! $2 !!!!! how? nvm lo.. eat maggie mee loz.. i m serious! !

i reached the control station at abt 3.00pm+++ haha and luckily gavin chong has JUST reached onlI! haha oh! i saw shuet ling and janet! hahah they dress till very nice lea.. tehy ask mi if i wanted to go see SYF! HUH! i wanna go! i really wanna go.. but that poor soul in red ( pig) waiting for mi... hm.... i rejected le..so sorry!
anyway.. we wills e something diff ... the pig has a pain neck! hahaha think its becos of his bad sleeping position! ahah now he is REALLY PANDANG ke-kiri ( tilting ) his head ! hahahA!we went to library... pig need to do his homework... which is onli ...er.... 4 small graph! AIYOI! argh! it takes onli 10 min to do it... .. hmm hmm i think he wanna accompany mi coz i m sad loz! but thanks bro! i really like it! next time call mi out more oK!? hahha its really very fun! hhaha esp to play with ur neck! hahahaaafter that perthatic 4 graph drawn ... we went to Causeway point to eat.. ahha i m very very hungry! hahah so i used my $2 to buy cheese fries.ahha he but that cheese fries too.. our plan is to buy a packet of OCTOPUS balls and a packet of cheese fries.. hahah then we eat.. ahha but when i went down to but that OCTOPUS balls .. hmm the HAPPY CUP STALL is CLOSE !!!! CLOSE DOWN ???? hahah i suppose ! hahaha poor gavin.. he loves to eat the 3 octopus balls.. now its close. hahaha dunno how he eat le.! bless hiM!then i actually wanted to withdral $10 .. but the stupid machine says i can onli withdraw a minimum of $20 ! aiyo! i didn't withdraw in the end la... hahah moo meow!

we ate the cheese fries loz.. then we went to cold storage to buy his drinks.. hm!!!!!!!!!! HMPH !!!!! i wanted to but the alovera jelly .. but he dun wanna buy for mI!!!u good ! haha!! he bought the yorgat drink with mango flavour! hahaha its ok loz... nice la nice la! ( eupherism !! haha ) then just as we were abt to pay for the drink.. i saw a RICE STALL !!! its onli $2.00 for a packet of chicken rice ! and its surely a real BIG lots of rice's packet! hahah compare the prize! that $2 of cheese fries is rerally BO HUA !! ahah so i digg my wallet and manage to dig out $2.50 !! so i bought a packet of DUCK rice.. haha which cost $2.50 hahah hmm i took 2 spoons. hahaha i know that he sure wanna eat.. y? he is brro PIG and pls put attention on the word - PIG hahahawe went out of Causway point to eat... just as like the past where we sit down there to eat SHARK FIN soup ! hahahah we are back to YESTERYEAR ! hahaha MOO!

we ate the duck rice.. and tok abt sjab... hahah he seems to have problem abt his teamates! but i believe he can make it ! he will obviuosly overcome all obstacles on his way to his championship!! hahaha JIA YOU! hahha oh! we exchagne back our calculator again! HMMMMMMMM!!!! so sad!!!! i want his claculator! hahah coz it's in good working condition..... unlike mine.. u can't differtiate the different between number 6 and 8 !!! HAI~! ahahah he needs it la! hahhaha well.... i accidentally.. or to say the truth .. intentionly grab his neck and try to "fix" it back into the correct positioN! AIYO! his whole head is tilting to the left!!! ppl may think he is siao! hahah moo meow ! welcome to the siao siao family! hhahah!

i really hope he likes the shirt ! hahaha he didn't seems very happy .. hahah maybe because of his "broken" neck" ! hope that the shirt really suit hiM! now i got to save $$ to buy one for myself too! hahahah hmmm.... so far. so good.... i still didn't talk to sperm and ovule !! hahahaa!!!!! OBI!

anyway! good night brother pig ! u have a long day tomorrow.! pls coem and join us on mon!!! if u no mony .. i can help u pay half .. which is onli $7 for u to pay! haha so pls come!!!!!!! enjoy ok? hahaha!!! if u never reply .. means u wanna come ! haha ( thats a cunning trick ! ) hahaha

good night !! pig and blog !

love,
Brother Bear,
Yit Hann.
MUAK !!

Friday, July 02, 2004

FUCKing DAY! ( but thanks Keyun for your help )! u brighten my day ! :)

YES! finally. friday arrive. its a day where is announce whether i m DEAD or ALIVE! yes - the day where i got to know whether i m going to KL or not. well, by looking at the title... dear readers, i think u r smart enough wat is the answer! well... :x !


in the morning, i woke up at 7.45am.. its raining... the first thing i think of is BROTHER PIG.. is riverside rainging? wat happen to his prise presentation adn SJAB DAY?

well...i m meeting Ke Yun at 8.45am outside her school. thank god she is accompanying mi to the SIR building. Oh yes. do u know that MY USELESS PARENT actually BELIEVE their SHIT friends that by canceling my PR .. i will affect my dad's status... I DUN BELIEVE! thats y , today's mission for mi...HOHO- is to find out the truth! and nothing but the truth!. i reached Keyun's school ( TPJC) at about 9.15am ! hahah LATE .. and saw her waiting there at the bus stop for mi. gosh! i m really late~! .. meow meow! we even help an old lady to keep a look up on BUS 21. she even bless KEYUN with a top 5 in class ..! MOO MEOW! BLESS HER too! ahaha

ke yun gave mi a so call - note.. it was a a chocolate wrapper that have a note in it in abt 5 different languages .. it says ...

"A friend is like the sun, always there even if unseen" YEA ! thats her! thanks GAL!

we then went to mac to have OUR breakfast.... i ate 3 hotcakes and keyun ate 1 harssbrown! hahah well, she met lots of her friends today moo meow~~~... :)

anyway .. we went to SIR building ... heading to lavendar.. heading to the truth! one step closer. ! JIA YOU! anyway.. on the way, we talk abt my pro.. in fact my PARENT's problem.. WHAT IS THEIR problem ? they keep on throwing obstacle for mi.! i really dunno wat their FUCKING brians, or if u choose to use a eupherism, PEANUT brains are thinking.. ( OPPS! excuse mi for using it.. not in the right state of mind )

MOO! i MOO AT THEM~
everyone should MOO at them too! MEOW IT !

well, we reached the place of truth... the SIR building. we went to the 5th floor.. wwhere the PR thingy is.. they gave mi a number.. 105 .. and i were asked to be in room 2 or 3.. but in the end... i was in COUNTER 5. it was an AUNTY! hahaha anyway. i asked..

YH " i would like to ask that if i cancel my PR, wil it affect my father's status in singaproe? "

AUNTY " no "

ahhaha ! THERE! STUPID IDOIT people listen to IDOIT comments! FUCK them ! OPPS! they deserve it! I DUN CARE! strike mi with lightning if u want ( or thunder also can hahhah !)

well, i called my mUM! thinking of shooting the truth at her face~!well, she is tounge tight! but she told mi somthing that i really wanna ASS THEM!
ASS THEM ! ASS THEIR FUCKING FACE !!!!
opps! sorry reader! its highly M18 !!! this BLOG is not even for NC16 !!! strictly M18 !!! thank you for your co-operation !

well, wat she says is that... the NYJC HOD wanna MEET mi! ya right! as IF ! AS IF i believe them that HE wanted to meet mi regarding my withdrawal! FUCK! obviously its my FUCKING mother's husband that called up the school! ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ASS HIM "N" time! where N is infinity! FUCK!

i mean i'm not saying that i dun agree to meet him! but the truth is.. he organise it WITHOUT TELL MI! wat is tis? HE IS BEING selfish!!! FISH MONGER !SEL- FISH!
he didn't tell mi about this meeting ! HE DIDN"T! and dun u think that its a basic courtesy to tell mi!? instead of doing every thing himself and put mi into DEEP TROUBLE! HOT SOUP! FUCK! no words could describe my feeling! no other words in human language ! NO! NO NO
NO!

speechless! onli one word - FUCK!

ok.. let mi see... wat happen next? hmm.. KE YUN and i went to SImei as she needs to take some cash from her sis who is working over there... her sis - ke ting.. is a teacher.. hmm cool right!? i wanna be teacher in the future too.. but its BIOLOGY teacher! HOPE so ! JUST HOPE THAT SOME "IDOIT FREAKS" ( u know who ) WILL NOT BLOCK MY WAY to my BRIGHT future !!!!!!!!!

we have chats over there... lotsa chat and laughter...thats us! happy TWO friends! hahah not TREE ..! (happy tree friends) hahaha! cartooon violence! haha

wehile waiting for her sis ... we went to arcarde and play.. we dance para - para .. which keyun didn't catch the skill yet.. hmm can one ! u got the dancing GENE! aha then we played the KIAP KIAP of soft toy. and lastly... ahaha the HAMMERING of rats!! ahha we got 16 tickets!! and actually i suppose to be 15 but will pulling the ticket out of the machine.. i manage to ull and EXTRA ticket! hahaha LUCK!

well, to cut long story short, short story even shorter.... we went back to NYJC. be4 that, we went to pet safari where i get to see lotsa cutty lovely doggy !! SO CUTE ! they have no worries! so good! its a blessing ba!

well.. a number - 97369928 called .. whos that FREAK ~! that GUY WHO CONTRIBUTE HALF OF MI BY HIS SPERM !!!!! ya ! u should know who!and u better know! haha BIO!
well.. i refuse to listen to him.. he , again, tells mi to go to NYJC!! ITSN'T ENOUGH!? that woman that contribute ovule TOLD mi to go to NY and now that idoit SPERM GUY is telling mi to go again! I HAVE ENOUGH~!~! too much of nonsence!

i reached there at about 2.15pm . but u know wat? i've been in NYJC for more than 3 months and i DUN EVEN KNOWS HOW TO GET THERE BY BUS!!!!~!
we were asking ppl how to get to the sch! FUCK!
can't u see my point here? i m a useless brat that dun even know how to get to the schooL! useless!

( sperm + ouvle = USELESS )

FUCK! ( opss.. here i go again! )

well... i reached the stupid school and here they are.. that 2 idoits at the fountains! luckily KEYUN is with mi... she is there to brighten my days a little... give some sun shines to my rain ... well it really forms a rainbow in my heart! i mean.. i m very depress liao.. but all i know.. at least.. she is there for mi .. to support mi. even if i didn't get a chance to go KL.. i wil really thank her! coz she makes mi realise that .. having such friend beside mi is more important than going KL. i have no regrads at alL! THANKS GAL!

hmmmmmmmm... i was put into a room and MR johnathan steped in. he was a HOD of blah blah . i dunno ... hahaha well. but sure enough heis friendly! but y in every school i have to speak to a HOD becoz of my dad.. eg.. in riverside - i got to speak to MR KOK regarding my BB and SJAB .. and now , regarding KL and singapore. meanwhile.. i know... KEYUN is outside.. fighting for every chances for my right ! . for my freedom... for my interest ... for my OWN future ! THAKS again!

we chatted alot in the room.. i didn't really pour everyting out. but selected few points on y i wanna go KL... he didn't tell mi that i m wrong .. he clearly explain to mi the possibility of the road that i m taking ..he say he spoke to my GP teacher. MR tong .. regarding whether i will pass my GP or not.. ( coz that SPERM says thats my main concern .. - which it WASN"T ) waw! now the whole scholl knows that i m going! I BETTER GO! throw face here! SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ASS !!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!

i really dunno ! THAT SPERM IS TOO MUCH! TOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK!

well... i wouldn't wanna wite out wat we say in the room.. coz its really nothing much! .. he just broaden my mind.. thats all .. it lasted about 1.15 hours +++ then they decided to speak to that sperm and ovule! well.. bless him.. when i went out of that office.. i heard that sperm yelling like mad SPREM .. and KE YUN face's is totally red!! really reD!!! ahhahah its hard on her! poor gal! i owe her too much!! hahaha treat her ba.. though its really not enough...

then she told mi about their conversation ... well.. as usual.. she had a hard time talking to a narrow minded SPERM! hai~!..... poor thingy! well.. as usual again.. he refuse to listen! FUCKING ASS! ( oops ... eupherism of FUCKING ASS = not even worth to be an idoit ) well. he kept believing that he is right! stick to his own idea !! OWN IDEA ! OWN SPERM! ass him la! SHIT LA!
well... but at least i know ... i've done my best in fighting for my own right and own future! with accompany of a SUN of my life ~!

well.. we went out of that freaking school after i've check my oral dates - 8/7/04 hai~!
we went to yishun to have our meal.. we were freaking hungry! on our way ... 97369928 called ( thats sperm's hp) when i listen to it.. i over heard thier converstion with mr johnathon .. hmm ahhah the 2 idoits accidentally press my phone number... though its BLUR and reception wasn't that good.. i agar agar can hear their tone... sperm is always speaking LOUDLY!!!! as if he LOUD = he is right ! I POUI !!!! POUI !!!

at North point we ate japanese food... CHicken bowl rice and a dunno wat rice .. haha we enjoy it.. but we are all dog tire!!! see la.... actually we plan to sing kara-ok after we've gone to SIR.. but that SPERM"S decision spoil our whole plan!see la!!!! we can't sing K box le !! ALL HIS FAULT ! !!

well... hmmm actually keyun wanted to go my house.. to talk to my mum personally.. at least my mum still have a bit of understanding! AT LEAST!!! but ai ya!!! no use la... she keep on listening to that SPERM!!!! shit la!

then i decided not to go le...
so we proceed to woodlands.. at there... i think we went to arcarde .. i have 2 dollars to play... so ke yun and i decided to play the KIAP KIAP of the soft toy! ahaha hai~! but didn't get it ! so sad. hahaha we went to the library .. coz ke yun wanted to find out about her CIP thingy... hmmmm so i accompany her loz.. she wanted to use the internet access in the library .. but neeed cash card! hahah luckily i got !! haha so we topped up $2 ... its really lots le...
then we went to find bookss... and then we thought of the second floor's counter that are able to help us find information! so .. drriven by laziness.. haha we wnet tehre... hey! MARC was there! he beat my ass with his books! hahah i was so surprise to see him! haha we chated for a while but the counter librarian socld us

LIBRARIAN : " no talking in the library"
well, fair enough! i say bye bye to dear MARC! really miss thouse pioneer guys man! haha
but ironically.. that librarian's friend came to visit him.. they CHATED!!! SHIT him!! he make the mistake himself! still dare to scold mi!anyway.. he didn't really provide much help! inthe end.. we still find ourselve! hahaha well..ke yun was finding RENCI hospital's contact and other organisation loZ! ahhaha after all .. we found it.. but i like not feeling well le.. wanna vomit.. and my vision was really blur!
hai~! dunno wat shit is happening to mi la! haha

wll.. we went home after that... reminding each other to meet on monday 1PM at woodland's control! hahah to sing K box
haha

i went home.... but refuse to speak to the ovoule and sperm . esp sperm!!!!

I DUN WANNA TALK TO THEM!!!!! SLAP THEM~!!!!
i called gain chong - brother pig...
but he was sleeping... i read his blog. :x :(
i dunno.. he was MIA ( missing in action) for a while le !
really wanna share my sadness with him.. but again .. where is him? now i m more sad!!! ARGH!!!!!!!! Y ALWAYS LIKE THAT!
i dunno la! he always not there when i really need him! i dunno lea!!! sometime he is there.. sometime he is not. sometime i find myself a food to do that.. to depend on him .. "aiya! ppl not free for mi ma!" thats how i think....i can't expect much le very sad. thats to be very freakly speaking) i dunno how to put it in eupherism.. sorry! now i m even MORE SAD... hai~!(

good ngiht blog! its been a very sad day! the answerin the end..i suppose is NO.. coz no one speaks abt it at all when i reach home! so ... its almost comfirm... 100% ?? i think so . that i m not going le! BLOG
BLOG.. i think i will cry tonight.. alone ... again! see ya! dun worry for mi! i'll be strong !

LOVE,
brother bear,
Yit Hann.
MUAK !