m6rch 有沒有別人跟我一樣很想被安慰 ,有時候孤單的很需要另一個同類

no boundaries

2009-05-20T22:12:00.001-07:00

For those who are still holding on or almost gave up... u must go on... for that one thing!

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VOTE FOR MY KOR! MARVIN!

2005-07-12T10:27:00.002-07:00

http://www.m5concept.com/VIRUSMagazine/vote.html

vote for MARVIN! hahaha WOW! suddenly marvin is cool! ahhaha

a place where they call HOME!

2005-07-02T00:40:00.000-07:00

welcome to the underground world... this place reveals the true side of nature. a side where the abondon ones were being accepted, where as though an orphan found his home... its a place where they could take off thier mask and be who they really are- for a few hours. just like cinderrella, where everything turns back to normal at 12... their's were at 4 - 4am.

it took mi a long struggle before i could garnnered all my energy and courage to write this. can't kept things too long in my heart. this underground world i m refering too, belongs to everyone . no one will be rejected, all are welcome, all are accepted. be who u wanna be. no one will laugh at u, coz there will always be someone more CRAZY then u... HOME- thats where it is. . . they found brothers and sisters there. no mum, no dad. perharps, it would be correct to say that we were like unwanted children that found a place to settle down.

somewhere, somehow, some what, the unwanted child lack of, is not just the acceptance byt he society, rather, to find the sense of belonging... where they need not worry that there will be lonely... lonely? yes, perharps loneliness drove these kids in. They were here, to be 'clean', to wash away their loneliness by the sound of music- most importantly, hopefully, by love.

love is a FOUR letter word. could true love be found here? no one can assure u. instant love- YES. long lasting years of love....? ans : perharps, not sure, maybe,abit impossible, good luck.
in search of these four letter word, many had been betrayed by these four letter word. these four letter word (FLW) is commonly used as an excuse for another FLW... ahem. FUCK .. yes-clever.

wat left in them, at the end of the day, is not love, but pieces of broken heart, a shattered dream of FOREVER LOVE.

can't blame them, they are naive, ignorance and pure, some say - they are simply stupid... do u agree? i'm not sure...i'm certainly hopeful to find it, i want to find love... who don't?
but ultimatly after such a 'long' time listening to true life stories...to think that true love exist in this circle, would be....erm...yeah, can't find another word to replace - stupid. (sorry)

certainly, there have been many exception too... many couples got together and "happily ever after"...

more certainly , the percentage of successful case is NELIGIBLE compared to those with tears and broken hearts.

wat causes such a phenomenon?maybe in this place, the love, is blinded by lust, sex, jealousy and domination. . . they can't hold hands when there's light. they can't kiss when doors are open. they can't hug when curtains are not drawn together. they need to hide.

here's the place for them to hide!

HIDE~ ~~~~~~!!!!!!

perharps the onli way i could help, is to pray for them, to find true love and no lonliness.....

.....but who will pray for mi?

yours,
LAI AH TU ( MOUSE)
inspired by self + NIE ZI

miss ah qing!!!!miss LAO SHU (MOUSE), miss ............

伤心的歌

2005-06-07T09:32:00.000-07:00

梦　天长地久的梦　地老天荒还是梦
天真的我不曾犹豫　我现在只剩下心痛
不曾有过感动　不曾如此怦然心动
飘忽的你就是这样来去匆匆　嗯?
错　告诉我没有错　告诉我该怎么做
现在的我偷偷的说我还没真正的错过
不要说得太多　不要说还有很多
寂寞的我　伤心的歌　是谁的错
我试着不再说　这里只有我
日子一样过　一回头尝尽苦果
无法忘记　不知道我该如何哭泣
不知道如何欺骗自己　是否知道只有你
无法忘记　是否所有的点点滴滴和那些醉人却心痛的故事
就在我尽情哭过之后　我就能入睡后忘记　只怕梦到你
错　告诉我没有错　告诉我该怎么做
现在的我偷偷的说我还没真正的错过
不要说得太多　你不要说还有很多
我试着不再说　这里只有我
日子一样过　一回头尝尽苦果
无法忘记　不知道我该如何哭泣
不知道如何欺骗自己　是否知道只有你
无法忘记　是否所有的点点滴滴和那些醉人却心痛的故事
就在我尽情哭过之后　我就能入睡后忘记　只怕梦到你
我不要　不要　不要
｛无法忘记｝我不要梦到你　不要梦到你
｛无法忘记｝伤心的歌　是谁的错

是谁的错

2005-06-07T09:25:00.000-07:00

寂寞的我伤心的歌　是谁的错 ?有沒有別人跟我一樣很想被安慰 ,有時候孤單的很需要另一個同類, 誰愿变成童话里我爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护我, 我不难过这不算什么,,开始懂了…...都是为我的错!

同類

2005-06-06T19:04:00.000-07:00

我要同類!!有沒有別人跟我一樣很想被安慰
,有時候孤單的很需要另一個同類,
誰愿变成童话里我爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护我,
我不难过这不算什么只是为什么眼泪会流,
开始懂了,
为何总到失去才懂的难过,

"都是为我的错"

!!!!!!!

他不愛我 ... hai ~!

2005-06-06T18:53:00.000-07:00

its always like that... its always that ...他不愛我

他不愛我牽手的時候太冷清擁抱的時候不夠靠近
他不愛我說話的時候不夠認真沈默的時候又太用心

我知道他不愛我他的眼神說出他的心
我看透了他的心還有別人逗留的背影
他的回憶清除得不夠乾淨
我看到了他的心演的全是他和她的電影
他不愛我儘管如此他還是贏走了我的心

... *sigh >_<;

LOVE

2005-02-08T21:17:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time there was an island where allthe feelings lived; Happiness, Sadness,Knowledge, and all the others......, including Love.One day it was announced to all of the feelingsthat the island was going to sink to the bottom ofthe ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boatsto leave. Love was the only one that stayed. Shewanted to preserve the island until the lastpossible moment. When the island was almosttotally under, Love decided it was time to leave.She began looking for someone to ask for help.Just then Richness was passing by in a grandboat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with youon your boat?" Richness answered, "I'm sorry, butthere is a lot of silver and gold on my boat andthere would be no room for you." Then Lovedecided to ask Vanity for help who was passing ina beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, helpme please." I can't help you", Vanity said, "Youare all wet and will damage my beautiful boat."Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Lovesaid, "Sadness, please let me go with you."Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I justneed to be alone now." Then, Love sawHappiness. Love cried out, "Happiness, pleasetake me with you." But Happiness was sooverjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him.Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voicesay, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It wasan elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed thatshe forgot to ask the elder his name. When theyarri ved on land the elder went on his way. Loverealized how much she owed the elder. Love thenfound Knowledge and asked, "Who was it thathelped me?" "It was Time", Knowledgeanswered. "But why did Time help me when noone else would?", Love asked. Knowledge smiledand with deep wisdom and sincerity,answered, "Because only Time is capable ofunderstanding how great Love is."

HANN: will time makes mi understand wat is love? Will time heal love ?

......... time ..... love ........... IF its so, i shall wait for love, even if it took mi FOREVER to wait ... i'm willing to ... wait ............

2004-12-24T19:11:00.000-08:00

this is for someone....

for a person who is waiting... waiting for love, waiting for a rejected love......

... ...Wait ... ...

If its fate that brings us here
Dun let love separates us
If we really mend to be
Lets hope it will last

But why its only me
Wants u more than a friend
But why its u
Put all this to an end

We’ve been through
High mountains and stormy seas
I was there for u
U were there for me !

Instantly I lost u
ur soul, ur breath, ur love
My world stop spinning
Wats happening to the earth!?!

If I know i have a chance
I’ll wait, I’ll anticipate
10 years, 100 years,
love will never be too late

its u who gave me hope
its you who keep me alive
its you who keeps me waiting for tomorrow
i know- tomorrow never dies

IF its only “waiting” I can do
will love turns numb?
Its only waiting for tomorrow
But wat if tomorrow never come?

Will I be able to hear “I LOVE U”
Its stupid – for some.
NOT ME!
I shall wait for miracle to come.

-Yit Hann23/12/20043.11am-

Remember ELMO always love u !

Love,
Your brother always,
Yit Hann

LOVE ME NOT

2004-12-23T19:58:00.000-08:00

-repulish

hmmm.... i still think this poem is nice ! hahahahahha hmmmmm.....

“Loves never started,
But somehow it ended.
I – a fish lives with no water,
Had lost a special friend.

Seconds pass by slowly,
A day seems like a year.
I can’t lose that special friend.
Like a car without a gear.

You insisted that its not my fault.
You said you’ve too much thought.Y
ou said I’ve done too much for you.
And it is time to stop.

You wanted a life way before me.
You wanted a love a rich couldn’t give.
You claimed that one day I’ll leave.
And not even heaven we will meet.

You, my narrator of life,
Has decided to quit.
You said it’s the end of this chapter,
And a new storyteller will read.

I’ll open the door of freedom,T
hat had locked you for centuries.
Now, go as far as possible.
Never look back – promise me.

Will this be a to-be-continue?
No one can foresee.
But one thing I’m sure
You’ll be happier without me.

Goodbye my friend that’s all I can give
It’s more blessed to give, then to receive!

-yit hannI

t’s really amazing on how everything could be summed up in one poem.

Everything is indeed true. ..
yes.. true !

love,
yit hann.

GET FACTS RIGHT !

2004-11-09T13:20:00.000-08:00

HEY!

EXCUSE MI!!!!!! since when i bring my whole family down AH!!!!!!

GET FACTS RIGHT ! this is a blog! everyone can leaves their comments de ok!!!!!! i have no control over wat others write , similarly, i have no control over how u think over it !!!!!

DUN DUN MAGLIN MI!!!!!!

FUCK !

i really hate people that maglin mi ok! u know how it feels!!!!!!!!! YA DUN BECOZ OF A TREE u give up that entire forest !!!! GO AHEAD and be a wood cutter then!

pls be responsible for ur own action ! u are a young adults le! dun think until so _______ can or not !!!!! get facts right! THINK OF how much u hate JACKLYNN AT THAT MOMENTS WHEN U 2 QUARREL!!!!!!!! wat hapen now? ask urself y u wil think this way at that moment !!!

PLS DO SOME REFLECTION!!!!!!!!!!!

dun think i'm shooting u , at least thats the least i can do !
a true friends DUN always goes with u, dun always agree with u ! they help u to become a BETTER MAN!

well, i'm not one of those! i dun even wanna say i'm once is...........

pls grow !
u know who!
i dun care
hann!

HELLO! I 'M NOT CRUVE !

2004-11-08T23:34:00.000-08:00

first things first.... i think u all should have notice 2 comments by nap and NI NI... thanks alot! i really appreciate that console~! ahhahaha but ....

to HIM :
dun be hurt k!? lets forgeyt everything bahz! i know u've already no feeling towards this friendship! anyway, if it hurts u- sorry.

hello blog.... new day, new hope.. hmm... today is qutie a fun day actually!
MEI MEI called mi early in the morning to WAKE mi up ! hahaha no lah
coz she mistaken an unknown caller as mi..... aniway, thanks mei mei for waking me up! if not i'll be late for meeting! LOL!

OH! my contact lens has a HOLE! so pain@!!!!!!!!! no wonder!

aniway, today i got meeting for OCIP! VERY BUSY AH!!!!!!! hahaha i'm in cultural !!!! so we are in charge of song and dance - pretty much of my hobby!
anyway, i haven eaten AT ALL!! so i'm dam hungry during the meeting although mei mei and MR NG did bought some bun and bread! haha thanks !

my head hurts coz i m STILL HUNGRY!!! so i keep "blowing" seow joo to finish her meeting! ahhaha anyway, i wanted to go sing K box with NI NI! hahahah so so so fun! so, i went to ang mo kio!! BUT that winnie ah!!!!!! she never answer my call lo!!!!! i gave her 15 miss call!!!!! 15 !!!!!!! hahahhahah i call untill a bit "PAEK CHET" aka impatient coz i need to know where she is to find her ma... aniway, she pic up her phone and finally realise that i'm calling ! hahahahah oh! her pri sch friend is there too! from the phone i already can hear her laughter ECHO! hahahhahaso fun! anyway, we sang ! and sang and remember unhappy moments! never mind! i'm strong ! STRONGER !!!!i can do it ! andway i m used to it le la!

JIA YOU! her friend is very fun too! but dunno y keep laughing! hahahahah LOL! i sing alot of soongs! LUCKILY NEVER CRY!!!!! not worth ito cry hor( right? nap and NI NI!? ) O.O

hahaha....................

wait! then i went home and ke yun called! hahahah she is sick!!! she vomited 4 times yesterday!!!! then she asked mi to call her at 10 coz she wanna watch the show - ren wo au you! argh! y everyone is glued to that show? nice mea?
swim swim swim!eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!~

anyway, i called her at 10! the conversation wasn't that smooth as i thought it would be... maybe becoz she is sick lo..... so to substain the converstation, i told her abt mi and gavin's situation!!!! i know initally that she dislike to hear abt mi and him... i duno y , she always find mi and pig is very childish... she always use childish to discribe mi and pig (if i tell her anything abt us la) i mean , come 'on, its onli a friendship! i felt very uncomfortable telling it to her, just dunno y , but i still think that she need to know ( as a friend la)... so i did tell her.. and as i know andpredicted, she wanted to say that i m finding problem to myself !! she always "scold" or , if i use a euphermisim, lecture mi with that phrase- "u always finding problem to urself "

ok loz.. she wanted to tell mi that phrase again .... but i tell her DUN TELL MI!!!!! coz i know wat she is going to say le ma.... very sad to hear that de lea!!! i mean .. i dunno... maybe she is sick ..so she never really go and care abt my feeling la..i dunoo..

but wat hurt mi most is that she ( and on behalf of her sis ) questioned my sexuality!!!!!she says y i m so good to that pig.. she thinks that i "like " him!

PLEASE LAH! ARGH!!!!!!!!!

i mean ........ ARGH! i m just tryin to be good to every one , or those that deserve it ma..... i talk abt him coz i care, not coz i LOVE .... ijust feel sad abt it , wanna share ma.....i mean , i know most MOST guys dun talk things out and treat other guys that good.... but i m different! VARIATION!!!!!!!

I think i ONCE treasure this FRIENDSHIP.... every FRIENDSHIP is like a "relationship' just like ,mi and gavin,- the feeling is the same for eg,
mi and ke yun, (er correction, not so -- now... HE HE HE HE HE (",)
mi and jacklynn,
mi and my 04s1D gang-nap , ni ni and my pw group (NY071),
mi and my ZHU ZHU club !!!!

I LOVE THEM ALL!!! I LOVE THEM ALL!!... coz i care! i show my care out! there is no wrong with it!!!

I M STRAIGHT !!!!!

its onli that i dun really tell people WHO I LIKE!

DUN ASK MI AGAIN!.....hai~! this is not e first time le!!! come'on! yes, i may not seems as though i mind.. but i do! i m a person , with pride too! i dun blame anione! i really dun! sorry if i offend anione.. i mean ...... i m just sad lo! coz people BY RIGHT see mi as a POTENTIAL "gay" ....

BUT I M NOT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun force mi pls! since young (like pri 3) people is making fun of mi le! i always seems as though i dun mind! they bully mi,. beat mi, make fun of mi.........though the number of BULLIES has signicficantly decreased.... but the hurt for every attack is equally painful! ( dun get things worng , i dun blame anione ok? )

wat can i do?
i dun choose to behave like that! i change alot le ok!!!!!!!!!!
its biological fault !!!!!!!

ok sorry for all the craping!

after all.. its mi... i m YIT HANN!

love,
straight,
yit hann!

WHAT! we are FINISH!

2004-11-07T12:02:00.000-08:00

OK ! long time no see blog, ask mi how m i?

ok. i m ok laH! hmmm.... let mi think,
if u wanna say abt acdedmic wise, i'm doing fine, but if u wanna tok about BRO pig and mi... its FINISH !

WHAT!? - u may ask....it seems so impossible....

well, i dunno, i smsed him yesterday night tell him what i feel ( as he keep on never care and sms to mi ma) so i think we need to talk things out lo.. yes talk things out, talk our friendsip OUT !

well BLAH BLAH BLAH! its finished ~! dun ask y !

how do i feel ?
according to that pig, he says he feels numb .... (as he KAN KAI LE)
well, sad to say, i have reach enlightenment, so i haven KAN KAI...... i think the whole think suck! it suck my days ! SAD!
CRIED! thats the onli thingy i can say!..HAI~!

BUT! b4 i leave him alone, i do wanna say something!

he says somehting in his blog...
I m lyk a shelter to everyone....when dey nids mi...dey come to mi...buat when e rain goes warmth returns...dey wil eventualli leave...bac to e arms of e earth...n dis shelter...can onli stood dere silently...feeling damn so hurt...buat he isnt animore..cox he ish numb...to everything...ppl came n leave tt quickly...so fast tt he couldnt even c properly...he is used to it oreadi...as long as ppl stil remember dis shelter...stil remember tt dis shelter is stil open fer all ppl...he is contented...wil neva expect ppl to stay....hahax..nobody would either....hehex...*

!!!! SORRY! i got a very different view ~!

y must u be a shelter???if i were u , i would rather be an umbella. OWN by someone, belopng to some one. every one should hav an umbella that belong to u. also, pls, A SHELTER? if it rains in orachard road i got to go all the way to yishun park to look for u as my shelter? i would rather hav an umbella with mi all the time (its accesible every whhere u go !)
no, my point here is .....
******! NO MATTER its rain or even strong sun ray, u can use mi. u know i'm be there for u always and unlike a shelter, when u need him, that shelter may be pack with people le. right?

so same thing, gavin thought that he wants to be a shelter for every one, everyone can use it.... true thats great, but think!y be a shelther? initailly i thought he is my umbella...and i'm his umbella... but no... he is my shelter..... PACK with other people!

that feeling is no good! u will never find true friend in that way!

i dunno how much u all agree with mi! pls leave a message tell mi bah! thanks

love,
HANN!

ROME

2004-11-07T08:14:00.000-08:00

if onli i have 3 wishes,
just 3 wishes,
what will i choose?
wat can i do?

FOR SURE !BACK to the past!
back where mistakes weren't made
where i thought friendship will last,
where there's still no one can replace.

dun even talk about brotherhood
i'm a nobody to u
dun even care about how i feel
coz u r numb-thats for real.

i'll be happier without u?
thats what i told her too!
now i know how she feels,
feels like a FOOL!

u walk my footstep,
in the excate same manner,
will the ending be the same?
regret forever?

u said u r numb
well - so too do" bear".
now my tears gland are numb
so wat? u won care!

thats COMFIRM the end,
the end of pig and bear
if there shall be a continue
my heart won even care!

coz by that time i'll be used to loniness,
used to traveling alone
used to the ringless phone..........................................

... ... it takes years to built but 1 day to destroy rome !

SORRY GUYS!

2004-08-14T00:15:00.000-07:00

hi blog! sorry that i;m not able to update u recently! lotsat hings happen! its a happening holiday@! i sure will write one! eg... i go out with brother WILSON the WHOLE NIGHT ! 24 hours never sleep! hahah COOL HOR? hahah and!! hahahahha aniway! i got a GP test tomorrw! and NOW I GOT A BAD FLU and that cause mi headach! dunno y too! hahahah i will surely write details de ! see ya!
good luck to mi BAH !

LOVE,
brother bear,
yit hann!

NEW FOUND FRIEND ! HELLO KWAN!

2004-08-06T22:01:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm.... a perfect day today ... ( is it?) yea... i told myself.. it is !
hmm.. today's blog shall be divded into 2 parts !
1) a HAPPY PART ...
2) a NOT so happy part :) <-- just read and forget abt it ok?

hahaha i would like to talk more about my happy day today! .. exciting day !

i had a chat with WILSON yesterday .. we chated for abt 1 hour or so... scolding me why i can't make it for sunday ! hahaha then i went to sleep at 2.00 ++ am lol! great friend.. so i dun mind talk till so late! hahah hmm ... BUT !!! I WOKE UP LATE !!!!!! i was suppose to meet the peeps at 8.00am at city hall ... but i woke up at 7.15 am !! what?
45 min for mi to fly from yishun to city hall ?
iMPOSSIBLE ! luckily.. my mum manage to send mi to yishun mrt station by 6.35.. the trip is aroung 30 min .. so its ok lol!

hmm.... well.. aniway.. luckily i came !~ while waiting for the stupid BELL to ring ( thats when the people attending the symposium will drag themselve to the hall like ghost ! ) [lame] . -_-
yu rong actually brought some one to our group.. hahha HEY ~!~~~~ excuse me.. aren't u that guy standing beside us outside the hall yesterday ? hahha he was very easily regconise .. the black complexion ( look just like gavin chong ! ) and muscles .. hahahah i comfirm its him la!... he came to us with yu rong... then

yu rong ( looking at samantha ) says .. i would like to introduce a new friend to you...... hmm... i thought she was refering to samantha.... but then his hand came infront of me and shoke my hand ... hahahha er.... OH NOW I GOT IT ! yu rong is trying to introduce him to our group.. not to sam alone.. i mistaken.. haha i was so shock that i shout out " HUH ?! " hahah ai yo !!! so malu !!!

hmm.. this guy is ver friendly.... not shy at all.... how to describe lea..... i think , personally, talking to him is like.... talking to a long lost friend.... no need to hide anything ... just be relax.. be yourself.. ( at least thats how i fel laH )..
His name is Kwan Yue Chao . his name is transalted directly from cantonese.. hahha hmmm not bad.... he said we won't remeber his full name and prefered us to call him by his surname.. (kwan) .. hahha ahmmm.. buti won't let ppl call my surname.. coz my name is so UGLY!!!
imagine people calling mi LAI !! LAI LAI LAI LAI !!!! waw lao! i will suai whole life man ... haha but he is different ma... his surname not bad ! .. hahah hmm.. anyway.. he behaved very naturally infront of us .... we chated alot .. from schools to schools ! hahahhaha (get wat i mean?)hahah aiyo! people is 3 distiction define by school as POTENTIAL scholar ! hahah WOW ~ cool man! if onli .. IF AND ONLI IF i m like him ah... potential scholar ...( i sure treat everyone a lobster ! )

hahha things went smoothly .... we chated like nobody business ! laugh out so loud ! hahaha .. haha with us around.. we sure DEGRADE the high class ! hahaha. haha ya.. basically fel comfortable chating lo!
HAHAH so comfort that hahhaha he say i was a XXY !!! hahaha sorry dude! i m a bio student ! i know wat it means ok ? hahah XXY .. hmm. .

* lesson time ~! ( good morning students )
in the 23th chromosome , X chromosomes is for female ... and Y is for male ... so a normal man will have his pair of chromosome as XY and a female a XX .... so ... peeps ! think ! if a male has XXY .. he has one extra chromosome ... which is belongs to female LOL!! THUS, this guy will tend to behave more like female... or to some religion , they consider them as " the THIRD SEX " ... this kinda man is usally more "female".. OK LA ! I USE A UNIVERSAL TERM LA - SISSY !! hahaha

hmm lesson over ! ( thank you students )

______________[lame]___________________________________________

hahah how sould i say ... hahah i know what he says means no offence.. so i m not angry lo! coz... i've been hearing all this since pri school ( p4?) hahha forget le.. but young lo.. haha i dunno la.. hahha so anione can come and ask mi abt it ! hhah i not shy le ! hahahah so no need to apologise ! hahhahah i very open de ! hahahha not so petty! haha
see! we feel so comfortable that we can discuss abt my issue in the OPEN HALL! hahaha .. LOLX ... so funny !!!!!!! ahah

hmm.. he was sandwiched between tina and me.. hahah poor guy!~ he say when he sit down he will tend to kick the front chair.. so to be courteous, he wanna make friend with the one in front so that she won't be angry with him... and the gal so happen to be YU TING ! OH NO ! ahhahah i tried to introduce kwan to yu ting.. but she BO CAP ( dun care ) .. hahhaha hai~!... bad luck him la ! hahahhaha .. hmmm.. he not bad lea.. understand wat all the speaker are toking abt.. to me. the speakers (expect the last speaker ) are like taliing to themselve.. i'm sure they fail oral in o-level!!!!

hahha [lame?] hahaa

he is also very daring ela.. dare to ask questions to the 4 speaker ..... (actually 3 speaker and 1 chairman) hahha if i were him.. i dare not ask lea...
coz i dunno wat they toking abt .. how to ask! ha
MR tong yee ask a question.. its something like.. is singapore really that successful and able to produce leader as singapore itself claim to be ? i think is a good question! BUT the speaker.. is like talk one whole chunk of rubbish and didn't answer his question!!!! they ar ! ai yO!..... Mr tong was surprise when they say they have finish answered his questina dn faster moved to the next person ... siao de la the chairman ! but watever... NYJCian will 4ever suppport u ! hahahha ( waw.... how come i say till like something bad has happen ......) hahaha no la. joking !

after the whole thingy ...blah blah blah... its finally luch time ! hahhahaha we were to go to another hall at another end .. hahha so fun! the place is quite big lol!.....
then it came to a delima where we ( mi and kwan ) has no seat !! hahahha i suggest to sit with yuan , rong they all ... hmm.. but the thingy is that their table (number :28) got onli 1 seat vacant... feel so bad when he tell mi that he wil find his own seat ! hahhahah! aiyo! in the end... we decided to take an extra seat to our table and an extra set of plates and fork etc ...

u may ask : " CAN MEA?!"
MI: " according to TONG's policy ... NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE IF U ASK ! ..... why not!?"

hahhaha yea.. thats really right! i think tong's class is really working ! i m applying that to my real life stiuation! hahha not bad! we ask a LADY in black if we could have an extra set of everthing? she says.. OK! hahahha
yes! SUCCESS ! see!!! i told u in my previous that failure is the ma ma of success! yesterday that MAN in balck dun wanna give mi an extra cake.. but now. haha the lady in black offer us an extra set of everthing ! hahha NEA NEA NI PO PO !!!!

:þ

hmm but in the end... he decided to sit with the other table .. with an extra seat onli... hmm ... ok lo! hahhahaha now he can make more new friend le ma !!! hahahahhaa...

ha !!! for the next few hours he didn't talk to us lo! hahhaha..... hahah no la! jking !

hmmmm WAW LAO~ u know ah.... now i know..
I PAY $30 is not to be a COW !

I PAY $30 TO BE A DUSTBIN!

euphemism : Vacuum cleaner .

haha.. its a 7 course meal !! u heard mi? 7 course ! by the 3rd course .. my stomach is like crying for help!~!!!! no more space le~~~ hahah aiyo ! but cannot! i must eat !! EAT BACK MY $30 !! hahah

but seriously... this symposium is worth more than $30.. i learn things that no money can buy.. its an opportunity of a life time! especially when this trip ended with a surprise gift - new friend - kwan ! hahhah cool! so if i were to pay $60 , i really dun mind lo! BUT KWAN ONLI PAY $20 !!!!!!his school subsidise more!!! argh! hahhahahahha

i drink my glass of cold drink with an orchird flower in it.... hahah so fun!
anyway.. kwan came to us to say good bye afte the whole thingy ... hmmm.. hope to keep in touch ! HAHAHH DUN WORRY !!!! true friend will saty... no matter wat !!!

so long.... good bye !

well, times is just as fun as it was in the morning...we went to esplanade for fun hahahah as a class outing.. hahah so fun! we walk there LOL~ its so fun .. though the sunlight shoots its rays on out body! oh yes! FELIX joined us too.. yea.. NOT that curtian hair felix.. its yuanni's felix !! hahhaha double FELIX ( denoted, said by wai ling ) ... but say is wai ling say one.. if not she thinks that i m copying her idea and start WAILING !! god! spare mi from that ! hahahha

we walk walk from esplanade tot he fun fair near us.... hmmm not bad !its QUITE fun!!! we play the MUSIC DANCE !!!!! its a machine that clains to spin u around like mad dog... but in actual fact... its just like a rocking chair ! hahahha ( i m not hao lian ) its really not fun! oh thats the NOT SO HAOOY PART !!!! tell u guys later !!! but so long enjoys the happy moments ! hahha

then we decided to walk to clark quey... ok .. fair enough .. but in the end... we walk to LAO PA SAT ! hahahha its really a long long way to LOA PA SAT ! spare mi next time ! hahhahaa
we took a rest there ... hmm everyone is dog tire !!!! ai yo ! alot of us bought this LIME JUICE ALO VERA hahah its nice? eer... ok onli la.. from far.. it looks like detergent ! and it taste more like detergent than detergent ! hahahhaha wat toking mi!! fun... i keep on making fun abt felix and yuanni....
they are so close and so sweet... yea..... and teasing felix that he keep on looking at me !!! hahah bt its true haha jking la! hahah

looking at them... i sudenly feel abit sorrow.... SHE ( u know who ) and me were like having so much fun in the past too..... .. hahah we play... and laugh .. but onli different is that she slap mi real hard.. hahaha

watever!
let bygone be bygone ~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~ and memories shall be gone ~!

ho ho ho .... ai yo ! our CLASS OUTING ends just like this.. in LAO PA SAT ! hahahha oh i play the SISSOR PAPER STONE with winne.. its so much fun!!! where the winner can slap the losser's hand ! hahah so FUN! no matter how i forget.. the memory of HER slaping my back and vice versa still flows back !!!! hheh so sorry ah winne i slap ur hand real hard hor?
hahahahha NEVERMIND DE LAR !!!! ahahahha

but we really enjoy slapping one another.. sadist? hahhahah!

the opthers laugh till~~~~~~~~~~~~~they almost got stomach muscle cramp!
well.... our HAPPY days ends like that lo! oh yes! before we go home.. we saw a gal that appears in the CHANNEL U - WHAT SAY U .. where she is on diet and lost 15 kg in 1 month... hai~! watever.. coz we do project work on beauty and tape recorded that show and keep on watching her!!! hahahah argh! but she still look fat ! hahhahaha...

ai yo ! there goes my happy moments ! bye angel... now i shall invite the devil to write the next blog ! ( the next blog is below !!! )

love,
brother bear,
YIT HANN! :þ

I'm just trying to be myself.. for that few minutes.... Y can't I ?

2004-08-06T22:00:00.000-07:00

ok... now its the sad part....

when we went to the fun fair .... we mark our target to the machine call - MUSIC DANCE ! .. hmm in the end.. onli FELIX , wei yuan and ME go loz! hahaha so fun!
it cost $6... Xpensive? hmmm not really to mi ( at that moment) .. but in the end.. i think the whole thingy suck! .. hai~!.......

i went up to the machine.. siting alone.. SIAN!
when the thing starts to move.. i was excited.. coz long time never take such a ride le ! hahahha i hope that with all my sad thingy ... i can scream out loud... scream out with all my might.. so that i can be more happy..

WAIT.... dun think u guys know that i m facing problem ? hahahha hmm... can't see frm my face? too bad ! hahhahaha thats wat the blog is for!

watever ... now no mood typing .. how? chating with gavin chong ( aka brother pig) and now arguing with him!!!!!!!! very sian le... sad.. become more sad ! how?
CRY LE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

ok .. hann ! be strong ! ....

hmm.. ya... taking the ride with us are a few secondary ( perharps lower sec) ppl .... hahha hmm...

sorry blog.. can't type anymore...... can take it ! dunno how to type out..... too sad to type.. i m not kiding...
i shall type when i m free and not so emotional ....

bye blog ~! sorry guys ...

love me as who i m ?
yit hann.
:(

LOVE ME NOT !

2004-08-06T00:00:00.000-07:00

HI BLOG !
wonder y i pose a new message?
coz i'm thinking about jacklynn and gavin's problem.... its really very sad....
i can't stop thinking about the past i have with jacklynn. ... why things turns out this way? i read again the "story" about me and her,
how it starts, how it ends... ...
how come we are not even friends ?

yes.. i read again the poem i wrote.... to many.. its just a freaky lousy poem..
coz they dun know our story ... they DUN !.. so the owrds in the poem makes no sense to them.. but to some.. who witness our start of friendship to the end..... knows wat i m taling about.......... sob sob....

to you know who :

“Loves never started,
But somehow it ended.
I – a fish lives with no water,
Had lost a special friend.

Seconds pass by slowly,
A day seems like a year.
I can’t lose that special friend.
Like a car without a gear.

You insisted that its not my fault.
You said you’ve too much thought.
You said I’ve done too much for you.
And it is time to stop.

You wanted a life way before me.
You wanted a love a rich couldn’t give.
You claimed that one day I’ll leave.
And not even heaven we will meet.

You, my narrator of life,
Has decided to quit.
You said it’s the end of this chapter,
And a new storyteller will read.

I’ll open the door of freedom,
That had locked you for centuries.
Now, go as far as possible.
Never look back – promise me.

Will this be a to-be-continue?
No one can foresee.
But one thing I’m sure
You’ll be happier without me.

Goodbye my friend that’s all I can give
It’s more blessed to give, then to receive!

-yit hann

It’s really amazing on how everything could be summed up in one poem.
Everything is indeed true. .. yes.. true !

love,
yit hann.

Eating that plate of SALAD, i feel like a COW ! MOOO !!!

2004-08-05T23:59:00.000-07:00

hi blog!,
yea ! finally back !! so cool! HAHAHHA SOORRY BLOG, I DIDN'T WRITE FOR SO LONG! COZ MY pc break down! hehhe ok .. now i shall wirte.!

hmm... so sad .. brother pig and her (jacklynn) argue and fight again .... "fight" literally. the argue over.. funny things la.. things that are not meant to be argue over.. yes.. its that jealousy that brought her to such trouble ( according to her ). Jacklynn told gavin ( just as what she has told me ) , that she will leave his life forever.... yes.. and now they are "stranger". hai~!......

WHAT!!! HISTROY REPEATED ITSELF? didn't she say this to mi 1 year ago ? now after 1 year, its my brother's turn! hai~!..... Y!!! y must this things happen again! y him ? y him ? she did that hurtful things to mi le... now his turn! .... hai~! i wrote a poem to say out my feeling.( though it sux la)

When autum goes,
and winter comes,
true friend will stay,
no matter what has been done.

Those who can't stand the big wind blow,
Can't withstand the rush river flow,
has their heart once full of joy,
turned sorrow.

Red roses turned brown,
promises turned to lies.
When smile turns to frown,
even she turned into passer-by.

When she cares too much,
it can be a disaster.
It comes to a point which spells
- stranger.

-yit hann

yea! .. hai~!... ya if u wanna know abt the story ..... curosity kills the cat... ok fine, if u claim that u were never the cat.. go to his blog and see the thingy lo!

haha ok aniway!.. GAVIN CHONG !!!!! u pass ur GERMS , FUNGUS , VIRUS to mi through the phone !!!!!! the day before yesterday , i called borther pig ( AKA gavin) he was sick! - sore flu, cough
blah blah ... hahah then i say .. " ai yo so pitty ah?"

now ?
( do u know that while typing, i actually have my BI TI - flu's mucus , driped down from my nose?) .... yes i got FLU, COUGH ,SORE THROAT , FEVER !!! waw lao~~~ + LAO SAI !!!!

sian lea !!!! how dare hiM!

ok ok .. back to today .. i got up extraodinary early today!!! coz my class got no school today!!!! hahahahhahah COOL! hahah coz MR tong YEE ( my cute GP teacher) brought us to a international talk at raffles convension centre - SYMPOSIUM .

hmm.. excited .. coz no need to go sch ma ! haha i go there alone.... very early ~! oh ... then i saw chang rong ,felix.. and we go bread talk buy some bread ! hahhahah hmmm GUESS WAT!? hahahha i m the FIRST CUSTOMER to buy the bread lea! so honoured !but no prize lea
haha

hmmmm we reached there.. waw~! the dam place is dam nice... flooded with top JC like AJ, ACJC, HCJC, and NYJC hahha thats mi ! hahhahaha hmmm very high class ah! but dun worry.. i'm always there to DOWN GRADE the class... i will make some noise de ! hahhaa

the talk was...er......fun! ( YA RIGHT ~! it spells B-O-R-I-N-G ) !!! hahha the speaker is MUMMBLE to himself... and disagreement happeneds ...frictions between the speakers as they have different views! ai yO! then we were at the back writing nonsense....er.... sian lo... dun edven know what toking them ~!!!!

esp the malaysia speaker .... siao ah ! speak so softly !! he think that the world world can hear what he is whispering about..... siao de !

**ps : if tomorrow u speak like that.... i make sure u SWALLOW the microphone !!!!

hahhahah er.. later he see le, put mi to jail how? hahhaha... anyway.. i m NOT yit hann.. so dun find mi ah !

lame !

[blah blah blah ]

RING !!!! yea! bells ring! LUCH TIME ~... after the MR tong talk .. which is funny lol! hhahah
we moved to the next door...to have our lunch! COOL MAN! its so big and nice.. thats where the j2 are having their Dinner and Dance !!!!!! hahahah sorry seniors but we are there b4 u do! hahaha [lame]

the first remarkable dish is so special that u can never imagine eating! u must try! ITS SO COLORFUL!!!!!! yes its none other than a plate of GRASS!!!!! yes ! GRASS...!!!! and its the food that MOO MOO likes to eat .. so that they got energy to MOO and produce milk !
thats what we are eating.. just that its more... colourful! thats all.....

well done! i pay $30 to be a cow!!!

then mr.tong yee came to join my table ( with samantha and wei yuan aka yuanni )

the next dish is much more better! 2 piece of chicken ! hahah its not bad la... hmmmm then it came an ever-inviting dessert !!!!
hahahhah dunno what cake is that la.. but it taste very veyr nice ! hhahahha hmm.... then we remember mr.tong yee's lesson!

" YOU CAN HAVE ANYTHING YOU WANT, IF ONLY YOU ASK!" AND " IF I CAN GET 1 SO EASILY, I CAN GET 60 MORE"

SO WITH THAT 2 PRINCIPAL .. i went to ask a waitress.. she is very BIG in size lea @!!!!! very very TUA !!!! looks more like the hospital MISSY that scold ppl and force them for injection! hahhaha with mr tong , wei yuan and sam supporting mi ... i sure can one hor!... going with a " if she give mi 1 more.. i'm going to ask for 60 more !" attitude! hahah hmm..

" can i have one more desset ?" i asked
"..............." missy wanted to open her thick lips.....
" sorry, we onli can serve u one" siad a man in black !!! who suddenly POP out , out of no where... or mayber the big size lady blocked him la
hahahha oh no... i so bad !
hahha so sad! tong says that i asked the wrong person! i shouldn't have ask when the MIB ( man in black ) is around !

nevermind! its a good start! failure is the MA MA of success !

KANBATEA !

hahahha aniway .... ppl start walking to their repective location le.... so even if the MIB gives mi... i no time to eat!

hahha hmmm.. ya no time to eat!!! thats a good excuse ! hahaha HOR HOR HOR!
hahha the next talk is ....reather...strange... it first starts with a STRANGE old man that talks like a man with a spoiled microphone...... so soft! and he got lotsa action lo.... like dancing in the small room lea!

hahah i record the talk down .. he so anti govt.. hmmmm should sabo him! ahhahaha no la

hmm.. after the whole thingy.. sam ask mi ifi wanna go for OCIP with the community culb .. hahhahaha i say OK! hahahha so ON hor! hhahaha so wei yuan and sam go to yishun with mi lo... hmm.. then wei yuan is meeting felix ( not our class felix !!! its another one aka her Boyfriend ) at 6.15 at city hall lol.. hahahha long time no see him le.. hahahha mean while we still got 1 hour ...lol... haha so we went to CITY LINK to shop shop and shp.. window shopping.. waw.. i feel like a wonman lea SHOPPING!!! cannot!!! i m a MAN!
hahaha

Then before we go.. we went to toilet.. i feeling so bad.. my stomach is so pain . so i took a longer time to .... SHIT! hahha but before i could finish my business.. i heard 2 ZA BO calling , no its SHOUTING my name into the males toilet ! WAW LAO!!!! now the whole toilet ppl knows that there is a guy, in the toilet, shitting, with 2 of his female friends waiting for him to shit finsih.. and the guy is call YIT HANN !!!!
SO PAISEH!!!!!! hahhahahahhahah i quickly finish my business and RUSH OUT !!!!!!!! no face le~!

hahahah ok la... not their fault loL! its my shit that take too long to come out! hahhahaha
OOOPS ! too obsence !!! M18 ~!~~~

hmm... then we go to city hall to met felix ! hahhaha there he is ! inside the control station! always smiling ! hhahaha wei yuan is like rushing to see him lol! hahahha thats so sweet !!!!

if onli... hai ~!. .... IF AND ONLY IF ...... hai~!...... sad memories .... forget it!

hmm... we tookt he train from city hall all the way to yishun which is the train's terminating stop ! hahhaha the journey is NOT boring at all.. we were chating and laughing all the way ... and my belt KEEP ON BREAKING !!!! keep falling off !!
we meet ellis there too....
aiyo! ok.. hmm we went to the NEE SOON east community club.. hahaha we were suppose to find a guy call TOM.. but that TOM is TOM TOM no where... so we got to TOM him and TOM him every where..hai so TOM.. hahah ok
[lame]
so we were shouting TOM TOM TOM al the way , hopefully someone reply ! hahhaa any miracle enough.... one guy look up and say..." YES?" aahhahah its him LOL!

he borught us to a room that is so ULU ba
hahahhaha its in a "basement".. when we went in.. we were very high .. hahaa we were so high!!! HIGH !!! hahaha during the whole "informal interview" we were laughing all the way...
hahha they seriously need guys! GUYS!!! JOUN MI and FELIX !!!!! hahahha
hope felix is joining us lol!!! hahahha he is already considered to be part of our 04S1D class le !hhahah register 24 ! hahahhaha

hmm we were instantly accepted as part of the team ! hahah so happy wow ! hahah so its

MI yit hann, wei yuan, FELIX , samantha NG , ellis , wai lin ( ever wailing) hahhaha were in the group... we choose our preffered role in the commitee .. hahah hmm
the thingy is on 17/11 to 2/12 ... we go to yun nan...

hahah i think its going to be fun la.. coz we are having a nice chat all the way till the end !!! hhahha so fun! hahah

then we went off le... one of the in charge call rick i suppose ask mi y i never took part in SINGAPORE IDOl.. he mad ah? hahahhahaha no la.. i not handsome how to go! haha no face..throw face.. i want my face ! hahaha

i say bye bye to them .. coz my house is just a few bus stop away! hahahhaha so fun!
hehhehe BYE GUYS!!! hahha

hmmmm when i reached home.. i tok to brother pig ( aka gavin) about my good news... and scold him for passing the germs to mi through PHONE ! hahahhaha

hmm tire le blog.. i type alot hor?
i know u guys sure miss my blog... and wei yuan and ellis says that.. when i re-write my blog , i wirte in like THOUSANDS of words !!! hahahh its FUN! haha

see ya tomorrow! hope that the MALAYSIA speaker can speak louder! if not he really got to swallow the microphone for mI!

haha
bye blog!

LOVE,
Brother Bear,
Yit Hann ! :þ

PIG in action. THANKS BRO !

2004-07-03T04:11:00.000-07:00

ITS A PIA DAY !! yes ... i mean PIA Pig In Action DAY ! hahhaha
yesterday, Bro pig saw the blog i recently put up. i really didn't expect him to see it. i was... not really call SHOCK but i was surprise ba. did expect him to see it so fast... hahaha anyway, i got to take back my words ( or rather my TEXT ) that i wrote in the previous BLOG. its really not PIG's fault! its my fault la... i've gone out of my mind! yesterday i just fail to see the reality. i was blinded by my anger! pig has always tried his best to be there for mi... but its usually because he is still young and still not not able to achieve the same freedom as i do, its always inevitable ( explaination : inevitable = cannot be avoided ) that he can't be there for mi. its not that he dun wanna be there for mi... but i can't be there... and i really dun mind and dun blame him for that! but pig, i do hope that u can pass this spirit of concern to other friends , aquaintances and needy ... do help them if they need some listening ears or a helping hand!

HE did mi proud! ahahah coz one day ( i forget when le ). We pass by an old lady selling tissus paper outside the library, near the road. She was singing some odd tune while selling. i've decided to callit - THE tissue paper SONG. anyway.. no one cares abt her... NO ONE! but PIG! he gave mi a dollar and ask mi to buy from her 3 packets of tissue! haha i'm so proud of him! MOO!

ok back to today !

today i m really having my LAST paper - the listening comprehension paper ( chinese ). in the morning, when i reached school.. i couldn't regconise anibody that i know... except that there is a figure outside LT4 that look abit familiar. i walk nearer,moo!! its ANGELA ! hahah ( she is an ASEAN SCHOLAR from malaysia that was posted in our class for 1 day onli.. but we became very very very good friend within an hour or so) this is because.. she knows my cousin !!! WEI QI !!! hahaha wat a small world!!! it is even smaller when she told mi today that her mother actually was a friend of my MUM aas they came from the same hometown!( pekan nanas)!!!! WAT A EVEN SMALLER WORLD !!!!! SMALL TILL!!!!!!
hahahaha we really have lotsa common topic to talk abt! cute gal! we chated abt NS in malaysia. and her friend ( another asean scholar i suppose who also went through the NS ) join us.. hmmm i wonder wats his name.... haha hope to know them more! anyway.. i really have a nice time chating with them! ahaha cool people! we are all malaysian! anyway.. she is going back to malaysia ( KOTA TINGGI )after the exam! have a nice journey ANGELA !

hmm..the exam was tough .. i think i got alot ( or if i choose to use a eupherism ) SOME wrong ! hahaha after exam ... the gang discusse abt the CIP of the DIVA football thingy. hmm.... in the end , we no need to go to serve CIP! hai! GOOD !we went to the seragoon market to have our dinner. JIA YU told us that she is most probably leaving!!! WAT !!!!! ai yO! i wanna leave too! ITS ALL THAT SPERM'S ........okokok!! RELAX yit hann! relax.... ok, i've decided not to bring yesterday's topic up again! RELAX !!!!!! i wanna live long!!!

anyway... ... i ate the CICKEN FEET NOODLE ! which the stall holder decided to call it PHONIEX's claw ! EUPHERISM again! hahaha this world is full of BULL SHIT ! hahaha. anyway!!!!!! winne and i got to rush back tos chool for the stupid student council's invertigture.! ( i dunno how to spell it) crap. hahah its ok la.. got to meet our drama club's friends! haha i was initially posted to the CARPARK near the OLD CANTEEN ! haha arh! BULL SHIT location! ahah but in the end .. due to terry's absent, i got to do it in the HALL! haha thats cooL! but hope terry dun get the wrong idea lol! MOO!
well... the 4 ppl that guard the hall must stay back... aiyo! i've aready make arrangement with winne to accompany her and NAPALIE to fareast to shop for their bro/BF 's birthday gift! hahah hmm winne went first .... coz they say it will last till 1pm ...agar agar .. buti nt he end.. is tay back less than 15 min . they say we can be dismissed!
then i went to find them.. infact i reached there first.while waiting .. i mlistening to a cd that jacklynn had burnt for mi. sad! very sad.. memories flashes back.. my whoole face change.. when winne they all arrived .. they thought i was angry with them .. i wasn't.... coz i m just sad abt this SUNKEN SHIP! well.. anyway.. we shoopped for a while and then we spotted a shop ahhaha FUNNY SHOP! its called - THE NEW WOLD ORDER ( NWO ) hahaha its a very funny shop that sell t-shirts with FUNKY design... winne and nap bought the PIG shirt as their gift. PIG... isn't that word familiar ? it makes u think of BORTHER PIG aka gavin chong! hahaha

i sms bro and ask if he wants the PIG shirt or not. its cute. i wanna buy one with the word - BEAR ! haha but i onli got $20 and each shirt cost $19.90.which means i onli can buy one ! :( so sad! NO! DUN EVEN THINK ABOUT TOUCHING MY ATM CARD! hahaha its for emergency... if thats an emergency .. then i dunno wat is non-emergency. haha dun get it? nvm! in the end. i bought a BLACK pig shirt gor brother chong... igive him for free de... i know he no money to buy ma... just give him loz... no reason y not. hahaha he is my bro ma !!! hahaaha ! BIG bro give small BRO something no need reason one!just wanna make him happy! ahahaha ( my blood bro never get a shirt from mi! not even a packet of tissue! coz i hate my blood brother ! ) hahahah so bro pig.. se how lucky u are ! hahahhaah jking la!

hmm... now , i onli got $2+ in my wallet..after i buy the shirt.. BROTHER pig also ask mi to go library.. he seldom take the initaitive to ask mi out.. so i really must go out with him loz! haha anyway i stil can go out with the gang the next time... and my gang - eg nap, winne etc are really fun ppl to be with! hahahaha cooL! BRO PIG! HERE I COME ! 2.30pm at wdl control! hahah! moo! in hte end we were both late! YIT HANN is very hungry and onli got $2 to last till monday@!!!!!! TILL MONDAY !!! $2 !!!!! how? nvm lo.. eat maggie mee loz.. i m serious! !

i reached the control station at abt 3.00pm+++ haha and luckily gavin chong has JUST reached onlI! haha oh! i saw shuet ling and janet! hahah they dress till very nice lea.. tehy ask mi if i wanted to go see SYF! HUH! i wanna go! i really wanna go.. but that poor soul in red ( pig) waiting for mi... hm.... i rejected le..so sorry!
anyway.. we wills e something diff ... the pig has a pain neck! hahaha think its becos of his bad sleeping position! ahah now he is REALLY PANDANG ke-kiri ( tilting ) his head ! hahahA!we went to library... pig need to do his homework... which is onli ...er.... 4 small graph! AIYOI! argh! it takes onli 10 min to do it... .. hmm hmm i think he wanna accompany mi coz i m sad loz! but thanks bro! i really like it! next time call mi out more oK!? hahha its really very fun! hhaha esp to play with ur neck! hahahaaafter that perthatic 4 graph drawn ... we went to Causeway point to eat.. ahha i m very very hungry! hahah so i used my $2 to buy cheese fries.ahha he but that cheese fries too.. our plan is to buy a packet of OCTOPUS balls and a packet of cheese fries.. hahah then we eat.. ahha but when i went down to but that OCTOPUS balls .. hmm the HAPPY CUP STALL is CLOSE !!!! CLOSE DOWN ???? hahah i suppose ! hahaha poor gavin.. he loves to eat the 3 octopus balls.. now its close. hahaha dunno how he eat le.! bless hiM!then i actually wanted to withdral $10 .. but the stupid machine says i can onli withdraw a minimum of $20 ! aiyo! i didn't withdraw in the end la... hahah moo meow!

we ate the cheese fries loz.. then we went to cold storage to buy his drinks.. hm!!!!!!!!!! HMPH !!!!! i wanted to but the alovera jelly .. but he dun wanna buy for mI!!!u good ! haha!! he bought the yorgat drink with mango flavour! hahaha its ok loz... nice la nice la! ( eupherism !! haha ) then just as we were abt to pay for the drink.. i saw a RICE STALL !!! its onli $2.00 for a packet of chicken rice ! and its surely a real BIG lots of rice's packet! hahah compare the prize! that $2 of cheese fries is rerally BO HUA !! ahah so i digg my wallet and manage to dig out $2.50 !! so i bought a packet of DUCK rice.. haha which cost $2.50 hahah hmm i took 2 spoons. hahaha i know that he sure wanna eat.. y? he is brro PIG and pls put attention on the word - PIG hahahawe went out of Causway point to eat... just as like the past where we sit down there to eat SHARK FIN soup ! hahahah we are back to YESTERYEAR ! hahaha MOO!

we ate the duck rice.. and tok abt sjab... hahah he seems to have problem abt his teamates! but i believe he can make it ! he will obviuosly overcome all obstacles on his way to his championship!! hahaha JIA YOU! hahha oh! we exchagne back our calculator again! HMMMMMMMM!!!! so sad!!!! i want his claculator! hahah coz it's in good working condition..... unlike mine.. u can't differtiate the different between number 6 and 8 !!! HAI~! ahahah he needs it la! hahhaha well.... i accidentally.. or to say the truth .. intentionly grab his neck and try to "fix" it back into the correct positioN! AIYO! his whole head is tilting to the left!!! ppl may think he is siao! hahah moo meow ! welcome to the siao siao family! hhahah!

i really hope he likes the shirt ! hahaha he didn't seems very happy .. hahah maybe because of his "broken" neck" ! hope that the shirt really suit hiM! now i got to save $$ to buy one for myself too! hahahah hmmm.... so far. so good.... i still didn't talk to sperm and ovule !! hahahaa!!!!! OBI!

anyway! good night brother pig ! u have a long day tomorrow.! pls coem and join us on mon!!! if u no mony .. i can help u pay half .. which is onli $7 for u to pay! haha so pls come!!!!!!! enjoy ok? hahaha!!! if u never reply .. means u wanna come ! haha ( thats a cunning trick ! ) hahaha

good night !! pig and blog !

love,
Brother Bear,
Yit Hann.
MUAK !!

FUCKing DAY! ( but thanks Keyun for your help )! u brighten my day ! :)

2004-07-02T05:37:00.000-07:00

YES! finally. friday arrive. its a day where is announce whether i m DEAD or ALIVE! yes - the day where i got to know whether i m going to KL or not. well, by looking at the title... dear readers, i think u r smart enough wat is the answer! well... :x !

in the morning, i woke up at 7.45am.. its raining... the first thing i think of is BROTHER PIG.. is riverside rainging? wat happen to his prise presentation adn SJAB DAY?

well...i m meeting Ke Yun at 8.45am outside her school. thank god she is accompanying mi to the SIR building. Oh yes. do u know that MY USELESS PARENT actually BELIEVE their SHIT friends that by canceling my PR .. i will affect my dad's status... I DUN BELIEVE! thats y , today's mission for mi...HOHO- is to find out the truth! and nothing but the truth!. i reached Keyun's school ( TPJC) at about 9.15am ! hahah LATE .. and saw her waiting there at the bus stop for mi. gosh! i m really late~! .. meow meow! we even help an old lady to keep a look up on BUS 21. she even bless KEYUN with a top 5 in class ..! MOO MEOW! BLESS HER too! ahaha

ke yun gave mi a so call - note.. it was a a chocolate wrapper that have a note in it in abt 5 different languages .. it says ...

"A friend is like the sun, always there even if unseen" YEA ! thats her! thanks GAL!

we then went to mac to have OUR breakfast.... i ate 3 hotcakes and keyun ate 1 harssbrown! hahah well, she met lots of her friends today moo meow~~~... :)

anyway .. we went to SIR building ... heading to lavendar.. heading to the truth! one step closer. ! JIA YOU! anyway.. on the way, we talk abt my pro.. in fact my PARENT's problem.. WHAT IS THEIR problem ? they keep on throwing obstacle for mi.! i really dunno wat their FUCKING brians, or if u choose to use a eupherism, PEANUT brains are thinking.. ( OPPS! excuse mi for using it.. not in the right state of mind )

MOO! i MOO AT THEM~
everyone should MOO at them too! MEOW IT !

well, we reached the place of truth... the SIR building. we went to the 5th floor.. wwhere the PR thingy is.. they gave mi a number.. 105 .. and i were asked to be in room 2 or 3.. but in the end... i was in COUNTER 5. it was an AUNTY! hahaha anyway. i asked..

YH " i would like to ask that if i cancel my PR, wil it affect my father's status in singaproe? "

AUNTY " no "

ahhaha ! THERE! STUPID IDOIT people listen to IDOIT comments! FUCK them ! OPPS! they deserve it! I DUN CARE! strike mi with lightning if u want ( or thunder also can hahhah !)

well, i called my mUM! thinking of shooting the truth at her face~!well, she is tounge tight! but she told mi somthing that i really wanna ASS THEM!
ASS THEM ! ASS THEIR FUCKING FACE !!!!
opps! sorry reader! its highly M18 !!! this BLOG is not even for NC16 !!! strictly M18 !!! thank you for your co-operation !

well, wat she says is that... the NYJC HOD wanna MEET mi! ya right! as IF ! AS IF i believe them that HE wanted to meet mi regarding my withdrawal! FUCK! obviously its my FUCKING mother's husband that called up the school! ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ASS HIM "N" time! where N is infinity! FUCK!

i mean i'm not saying that i dun agree to meet him! but the truth is.. he organise it WITHOUT TELL MI! wat is tis? HE IS BEING selfish!!! FISH MONGER !SEL- FISH!
he didn't tell mi about this meeting ! HE DIDN"T! and dun u think that its a basic courtesy to tell mi!? instead of doing every thing himself and put mi into DEEP TROUBLE! HOT SOUP! FUCK! no words could describe my feeling! no other words in human language ! NO! NO NO
NO!

speechless! onli one word - FUCK!

ok.. let mi see... wat happen next? hmm.. KE YUN and i went to SImei as she needs to take some cash from her sis who is working over there... her sis - ke ting.. is a teacher.. hmm cool right!? i wanna be teacher in the future too.. but its BIOLOGY teacher! HOPE so ! JUST HOPE THAT SOME "IDOIT FREAKS" ( u know who ) WILL NOT BLOCK MY WAY to my BRIGHT future !!!!!!!!!

we have chats over there... lotsa chat and laughter...thats us! happy TWO friends! hahah not TREE ..! (happy tree friends) hahaha! cartooon violence! haha

wehile waiting for her sis ... we went to arcarde and play.. we dance para - para .. which keyun didn't catch the skill yet.. hmm can one ! u got the dancing GENE! aha then we played the KIAP KIAP of soft toy. and lastly... ahaha the HAMMERING of rats!! ahha we got 16 tickets!! and actually i suppose to be 15 but will pulling the ticket out of the machine.. i manage to ull and EXTRA ticket! hahaha LUCK!

well, to cut long story short, short story even shorter.... we went back to NYJC. be4 that, we went to pet safari where i get to see lotsa cutty lovely doggy !! SO CUTE ! they have no worries! so good! its a blessing ba!

well.. a number - 97369928 called .. whos that FREAK ~! that GUY WHO CONTRIBUTE HALF OF MI BY HIS SPERM !!!!! ya ! u should know who!and u better know! haha BIO!
well.. i refuse to listen to him.. he , again, tells mi to go to NYJC!! ITSN'T ENOUGH!? that woman that contribute ovule TOLD mi to go to NY and now that idoit SPERM GUY is telling mi to go again! I HAVE ENOUGH~!~! too much of nonsence!

i reached there at about 2.15pm . but u know wat? i've been in NYJC for more than 3 months and i DUN EVEN KNOWS HOW TO GET THERE BY BUS!!!!~!
we were asking ppl how to get to the sch! FUCK!
can't u see my point here? i m a useless brat that dun even know how to get to the schooL! useless!

( sperm + ouvle = USELESS )

FUCK! ( opss.. here i go again! )

well... i reached the stupid school and here they are.. that 2 idoits at the fountains! luckily KEYUN is with mi... she is there to brighten my days a little... give some sun shines to my rain ... well it really forms a rainbow in my heart! i mean.. i m very depress liao.. but all i know.. at least.. she is there for mi .. to support mi. even if i didn't get a chance to go KL.. i wil really thank her! coz she makes mi realise that .. having such friend beside mi is more important than going KL. i have no regrads at alL! THANKS GAL!

hmmmmmmmm... i was put into a room and MR johnathan steped in. he was a HOD of blah blah . i dunno ... hahaha well. but sure enough heis friendly! but y in every school i have to speak to a HOD becoz of my dad.. eg.. in riverside - i got to speak to MR KOK regarding my BB and SJAB .. and now , regarding KL and singapore. meanwhile.. i know... KEYUN is outside.. fighting for every chances for my right ! . for my freedom... for my interest ... for my OWN future ! THAKS again!

we chatted alot in the room.. i didn't really pour everyting out. but selected few points on y i wanna go KL... he didn't tell mi that i m wrong .. he clearly explain to mi the possibility of the road that i m taking ..he say he spoke to my GP teacher. MR tong .. regarding whether i will pass my GP or not.. ( coz that SPERM says thats my main concern .. - which it WASN"T ) waw! now the whole scholl knows that i m going! I BETTER GO! throw face here! SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ASS !!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!

i really dunno ! THAT SPERM IS TOO MUCH! TOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK!

well... i wouldn't wanna wite out wat we say in the room.. coz its really nothing much! .. he just broaden my mind.. thats all .. it lasted about 1.15 hours +++ then they decided to speak to that sperm and ovule! well.. bless him.. when i went out of that office.. i heard that sperm yelling like mad SPREM .. and KE YUN face's is totally red!! really reD!!! ahhahah its hard on her! poor gal! i owe her too much!! hahaha treat her ba.. though its really not enough...

then she told mi about their conversation ... well.. as usual.. she had a hard time talking to a narrow minded SPERM! hai~!..... poor thingy! well.. as usual again.. he refuse to listen! FUCKING ASS! ( oops ... eupherism of FUCKING ASS = not even worth to be an idoit ) well. he kept believing that he is right! stick to his own idea !! OWN IDEA ! OWN SPERM! ass him la! SHIT LA!
well... but at least i know ... i've done my best in fighting for my own right and own future! with accompany of a SUN of my life ~!

well.. we went out of that freaking school after i've check my oral dates - 8/7/04 hai~!
we went to yishun to have our meal.. we were freaking hungry! on our way ... 97369928 called ( thats sperm's hp) when i listen to it.. i over heard thier converstion with mr johnathon .. hmm ahhah the 2 idoits accidentally press my phone number... though its BLUR and reception wasn't that good.. i agar agar can hear their tone... sperm is always speaking LOUDLY!!!! as if he LOUD = he is right ! I POUI !!!! POUI !!!

at North point we ate japanese food... CHicken bowl rice and a dunno wat rice .. haha we enjoy it.. but we are all dog tire!!! see la.... actually we plan to sing kara-ok after we've gone to SIR.. but that SPERM"S decision spoil our whole plan!see la!!!! we can't sing K box le !! ALL HIS FAULT ! !!

well... hmmm actually keyun wanted to go my house.. to talk to my mum personally.. at least my mum still have a bit of understanding! AT LEAST!!! but ai ya!!! no use la... she keep on listening to that SPERM!!!! shit la!

then i decided not to go le...
so we proceed to woodlands.. at there... i think we went to arcarde .. i have 2 dollars to play... so ke yun and i decided to play the KIAP KIAP of the soft toy! ahaha hai~! but didn't get it ! so sad. hahaha we went to the library .. coz ke yun wanted to find out about her CIP thingy... hmmmm so i accompany her loz.. she wanted to use the internet access in the library .. but neeed cash card! hahah luckily i got !! haha so we topped up $2 ... its really lots le...
then we went to find bookss... and then we thought of the second floor's counter that are able to help us find information! so .. drriven by laziness.. haha we wnet tehre... hey! MARC was there! he beat my ass with his books! hahah i was so surprise to see him! haha we chated for a while but the counter librarian socld us

LIBRARIAN : " no talking in the library"
well, fair enough! i say bye bye to dear MARC! really miss thouse pioneer guys man! haha
but ironically.. that librarian's friend came to visit him.. they CHATED!!! SHIT him!! he make the mistake himself! still dare to scold mi!anyway.. he didn't really provide much help! inthe end.. we still find ourselve! hahaha well..ke yun was finding RENCI hospital's contact and other organisation loZ! ahhaha after all .. we found it.. but i like not feeling well le.. wanna vomit.. and my vision was really blur!
hai~! dunno wat shit is happening to mi la! haha

wll.. we went home after that... reminding each other to meet on monday 1PM at woodland's control! hahah to sing K box
haha

i went home.... but refuse to speak to the ovoule and sperm . esp sperm!!!!

I DUN WANNA TALK TO THEM!!!!! SLAP THEM~!!!!
i called gain chong - brother pig...
but he was sleeping... i read his blog. :x :(
i dunno.. he was MIA ( missing in action) for a while le !
really wanna share my sadness with him.. but again .. where is him? now i m more sad!!! ARGH!!!!!!!! Y ALWAYS LIKE THAT!
i dunno la! he always not there when i really need him! i dunno lea!!! sometime he is there.. sometime he is not. sometime i find myself a food to do that.. to depend on him .. "aiya! ppl not free for mi ma!" thats how i think....i can't expect much le very sad. thats to be very freakly speaking) i dunno how to put it in eupherism.. sorry! now i m even MORE SAD... hai~!(

good ngiht blog! its been a very sad day! the answerin the end..i suppose is NO.. coz no one speaks abt it at all when i reach home! so ... its almost comfirm... 100% ?? i think so . that i m not going le! BLOG
BLOG.. i think i will cry tonight.. alone ... again! see ya! dun worry for mi! i'll be strong !

LOVE,
brother bear,
Yit Hann.
MUAK !

EXAM OVER !! K-BOX TIME !

2004-06-30T07:47:00.000-07:00

YO! so happy ... mid year exam finally over~!
actually , i wasn't really very happy that it is over, coz i really didn't study much . so i won't say " i can relax le.." coz... i've always been relaxing!
well, overall.. the exam SUCK.. i dun think i can pass all the paper... though i did study .. and real hard.. but i think my timming is really bad.. coz i start studying 3 weeks ago.. so .. i got to recap wat i've learn 3 weeks ago... meow meow! hard!
hai~! .. forget it.. its OVER!

well... someting really scare mi today! i went to take my contact lense from my mum ... i decided to wear it in the canteen as we are having a meeting on the social entrepurneur projct .( or watever u call that) .. the thing is that.. WAW CAOW !!!!!!!!! when i put the lense into my right ..... there is a feeling of BURNT and very " sour" and paiN! the lens drop.. and i quickly rush to the nearest sink to wash my eyes.. i wash it once.. twice .. thricew ( i suppose) .. then the most shocking news came !

" YTI HANN!! YOUR EYES ARE VERY RED LEA! " they all say! ... argH!
initailly , i thought .. how RED couldit be.. PINK the most lox! dun scare mi la..
so i ran to the toliet and look into the mirror...

GOD ! i really hope that there is no mirror!! its really RED! YES !!! RED!
i MEAN RED ! just in case if u dunno .... its the color of the singapore flag !! thats how RED it is ... my right eyes ! i really thought that i would go blind !!! so scare! i even thought of not going shopping ! how lea ! anyway.. its getting better... and its REALLLY SLOWLY getting better! hahah now.. hmm ok loz... still a bit la ... hai~! really hope that there is nothing loz!

any way.... i went out with napalie and winne.... 3 of us.. hahah we are 3 in one GANG! hahaha we took a ride on the bus.. dunno wat bus number la.. its just opposite our schoool only wow.!

the bus pass by CJC.. god! all the BLUE UNI ppl flooded the whole bus... one guy in CJ even sit beside mi! MOO !!!

hai~!... we stop at the bus stop one stop away from actual stop! hahah i wrote so many word : "stop" . haha hmmm.. when i got down the bus.. i thought i left my HP on the bus.. i scream .. !! the bus stopped and waited for mi! so moo meow ~! hahaha paiseh loz!i went up but founds nothing.... whole village waiting for mi! moo meow ! then just as i was abt to get down .. MOO! i realise that its in my shirt pocket !
anyway ..... we went to PARAGON to search PARTY world ... hmmmm.... but no where to be seen! its not in the paragon! MOO! MEOW! anyway.. napalie is searching a shirt for her _______ hahah.. can't say much abt that..sorry! she'll kill mi! anyway.... in the end.. she didn't find the right shirt... hai~!! NAP NAP! as long as u buy ... he will be more than happy to wear .. even if it was a dress!! hahahah joking la ! all the best for u guys!

Then we decided to go to K box to sing ! YEA! .. going to k box instead of party world.. is like... going back home instead of other people's house to live... coz i know K-box more ! MOO!!!! so fun! we went to eat RAMEN instead of food court as they say its X ($3.50 for a pale of chicken rice) in food court.... then ironicaly.. we eat ramen ( far east) at the coz of $7.90 . hahaha but its fun!MOO!

then we went to shop for nap's cloths and winnie's slipper.. but none of them got wat they want ! HAI~!..... but we reached K box ( at ceniplex ) at about 2.30pm ... it cost us $15 person ! excatly! CHEAP loz.. hahah hm..... initailly , as i predicted, eveyone is shy to sing... i choose the S.H.E song - AI WO DO ZI GE ... hahaha in the end ... 3 person's song .. i sing myself.. hahah but they are getting the hang of singing LOUDLY and MADLY .. hahahhaha GOOD ! in no time .. we've gone mad !!! hahahah i remember i sang the song VENUS by Sun Yan Zi .. hahah MOO! i danced the song.. then the waitress came in! AH! i got a shock of my life ! so paiseh. but i continue to sing! DUN CARE! MOOO at her!

we've gone mad!! SHOUTING , SCREAMING and dancing .... all 3 of us!!!! FUN! HOT !!! WOW !!!! MOOOOOO!!!! esp nap ... never see her so SIAO b4! i think we really enjoy ourselve! MEOW!
oh nap lend my phone to sms SOMEONE... then she forget to delete the message in the SENT compartment.. MOO! hahah and i saw it... the first line onli ... its.. ______________________! can't say! coz NAP NAP will not let mi have a nap if she knew it! hahha joking la! so fuN!
we sing till 7.30PM where the waiter came to chase us out! The last song we sang ( half way) is by AH NIU - CAI ZE CAN LUN CER DE LAO BO.... MOO!!!!

haha mOO!
then we went home le! so fun!

really thanks u guys for the great day!!!!!! friends 4ever!!!moo!

oh yes! i message brother pig today... for "N" times ( where N is infinity ) !! and He answer "A" times ( where A is = zero - 0 ) hahah hai~!... so sad ~! i wanted to share my joy with him! moo! i even call him. but his sis says that he is sleeping! not impressive after all.. he is my rother PIG .. yes put more attention on the word " PIG " hahah no la! he is a great guy! i think if i'm not wrong , he has debate today .. hmm i wonder how is it! really wanna know wow !!! hahaha but he never reply or call mi ... so sad!!!! its not really a true happiness without him sharing my JOY! hai!! brother pig! WHERE R U !!!

tomorrow is a boring day.. no sch .. so is fri and next mon! hahhaha mOO!see how la!

BROTHER PIG - hope u do ur best in ur debate! ALL THE BEST!
( and i know u didn't pray for my exam ) hahahhaah

see ya BLOG !

love,
brother BEAR,
Yit Hann! MUAKs!

WHO M I now? i m turning into a deviL! meow!

2004-06-26T01:11:00.000-07:00

the answer is NO

2004-06-26T00:02:00.000-07:00

hi blog...( crying - sobbing)
i m now in KL..... initailly i was excited... thinking that i can finally get out of the singapore eduaction system.. which SUX... but now... the truth is that i can't go! we ( my useless family and my friend XIAO CHUAN! MOOING MEOWING ) went to sunway college with mi .. there we saw another USELESS indian lady .. who try to explain to us the CIMP prograamme.... which is not doing any help! ... i really dunno wat she is talking... just purely rubbish! .. a bad start.. then we move on to taylor 's college.... which seems more HIGH CLASS.... moo!
the consellor is not bad.. tat lady is very friendly ... i really like it alot .. compare to the useless ABU NEA NEA !i thought my dad would really allow mi to study there... but to mi.. going to KL for them.. is more like finding more evidence to shoot mi back y i should have gone there to study! i think they are bias.. or to make it sounds good.. onli my dad is bias ...i m so stress... he is focusing on the disadvantages of studying in malaysia!.. ASS HIM@ i really very sad. cry lotsa time.. heart bleeds.. coz i know.. if i continue to study ing NYJC.. hahah there goes my future.. maybe i m too pessimisstic ... maybe i think too much.. but its better to be safe then sorry! i dun wanna retaiN! BLOG ! lets just see where i ended up IF AND ONLI IF i follow their plan. i really dislike ( or should i phrase it as HATE!) that mother's HUSBAND of mine ! brother pig.... ur jacket comes useful as i know u guys are behind mi!..u are so far.. yet so near... hahahah moo!

POOR XIAO CHUAN .... he has become the middle man ... always hear mi grumbling, shouting.... hai~! .. poor him! hahahaha

XC : MOO MEOW ! YES !

my dad keep on emphasizing the point that people are FLOCKING to singapore to study and yet i m the exceptional one who wanna get out of singapore... he is an ASS HOLE !

i really do hate it! CRIED>. tears are dried! i think i go RED box - in sunway pyramid shopping center (aka K box in singapore)! to sing my heart out...
mid year is ONE DAY AWAY.. yet i m here.. singing.. i really dunno wat to do ... i can't foresee my future! i really can't !i dun see any dim light in NYJC.... i CAN"T !!!!

so long.... good bye... no tomorrow ....

thanks hui shi, brother pig- gavin ,kelvin yip for the support..
thatnks XIAO CHUAN for the accompany and the advice and console! really helps lots! really thanks!

thanks lotsa ppl!

love,
brother bear,
yit hann!

GO KL STUDY?? YES? NO ?

2004-06-23T10:48:00.000-07:00

YOZ!
long time since i ever wirte... coz i'm really busy with study , and slacking too! ahahha well, recently brother pig accompany mi to the library to study .... that is really a miricle! hahaha he seldom go out study .. hahaha . . . well...

sometime's i'm really very scare of me, myself.. really can't tahan myself... i mean it is the fact that.. i can see through people... i know wat they think , and y they think this way.. its really scary if u experiences it. eg, that time in library, gavin went to find a friend... well.. hahaha without asking, i know who is it...and i m right ! really scary~!!!!! coz u know he is hiding somehting...... and u know he dun wanna tell...

and i dun need to ask... coz i know wat he is thiniking....

don understand ? never mind!

ahha
dude!
XC's influcence is BIG!
the more i go along with him, the more i wanted to go KL study!
ahhaha he is a SMART ass la! haha

well, i told my mum and dad abt my plan going to KL.. they didn't disagree...... so i take it as they agree loz.
moo meow! hahah so fun! but the more they agree.. the more i think i will regret ... in the sense tat i scare i make the worng choice. dunno la
!
lazy liao!
bye blog!

love,
hann

MY LIFE SUX!

2004-06-11T06:29:00.000-07:00

wow! i woke up at 830 today.. hmm having PW meeting.. wat makes mi stress is that i m going to have a one to one session with mr cute cute tong ... hahaha oh
i like his teaching . but i feel stress when there is aface to face session with him when he mark my test... but i know its good to mi la..

anyway ... i m the 3rd one to arrive for the meeting.. MIAO MIAO is the lastest.. cos she is having breakfast with her mum...oh! BTW she is a vegetarian.... hahaha just for ur info ma... hahha

aniway... during the middle of our meeting... MR tong sms yu wrong ...saying that he is unable to attend the session with us.. HENG !!! LUCKY SIA!

ani way.... the meeting is abt survey ... we are abt to interview our dearest motherly principal.... but she will onli return to sch at 20++++ of this month. sian.
aniway ... i smsed gavin..ask him out for breakfast since tong can't meet us liao( yesterday he ask mi out for breakfast , but i can't cos i need to meet him.. but now that i m free i ask hi out loz).. i sms and sms.. but no reply.. sleeping?
maybe ..he is a pig afterall... so after a while i decided to call him... god!
his phone is engaged.. so i know he must be in another line!
he say he just ask someone out... yea.. its her la!!! i no need to name.. hai~!.. fate la..! can't meet means can't meet....force also no use!.... bullshit! ani way . ( yu rong , miao miao n me ) went to eat breakfast... while nap nap go home makan.. hahah and our wei yuan went to her chong cheng school to collect her o level certificate.. hahah everyone has their own task to do... mine too.. my day sux!

the TAO HUA in seragoon is really very nice.... i wanted to ta bao for brother gavin to try... he was havinh a meeting with his friend .. so he suggested that i buy 3 tao hua so that his friends can enjoy too hahahha.. ok resonable enough.

i reached the woodland by 1.20pm...... and bro pig sneak the tao hua into the library.. how dare hiM!!! MOO AT HIM! MOOOO!

hey! thats jing hong and jasmine in the corner.. hahaha
so i joined them.. bro pig went up straight without informing mi! hahah meow at him! MEOW!we chated and wei lin came.. hahah long time ever see old friends..... it sounds more like a gathering. Ke yun is joining us at 230pm... hahahah
to be very honest.. i really didn't do much..... yes i do lots of talking.. but not work! aiyo!
i really hate this.. its not their fault!meow!
we chated ...moo ...moo... but the tao hua is there al the time.. waiting to rot.....! ARGH! such a beautiful, tastiful tao hua.. i can't bear to se it rot! where is that gain PIG?

oh ! special request from him.. he want us to DELIVER UP TO 4th floor to him!
hahah waw! young master chong ah?!AH! hahhaha meow!anyway.. i did as told...for the sake of the tao hua! hahhahaha no la....anyway.... he chase us off after the deliver! ARGH!!!!! GOOD !watch out!

aniway.... i got info from him that jacklynn is at the second floor... i htink i do see her.. catch a glimps of her.. well... jing hong found a very beautifyul place for 4 ppl.. just nice.. keyun, jing ong, jasmine and mi! hahaha moo meow !
we chated and chated and joked ....... time flies!
aniway.. i cut lots of detail..... too sian.. coz jing hong ( JH) actually says lots of lame jokes... and when i mean lame.. i really mean LAME!!!!!

they all leaves mi at 7pm.....
hahah finally its time for mi to study alone. i meet ke yun at 11 30 tomorrow at wdl control. but i realise that i have lots of things not compeleted! DIE!!!!!!!! STRESS! then i realsie that yes! the probelm is stress........!!!!!
dunno wat i m talking abt? nvm.....
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all these days, pig has his own problem... i didn't tell him that i m stress becos he needs my console and attention more than i do..... so i console him and blah blah blah.... but subconciously.... my stress level increases.. as i m not able to tell bro pig abt my stress... it accumulates ... more and more.. now.. its exploding....thats the reasons y i m so angry and shouted at poor gavin when he rejected to go out with mi.. coz i need someone to talk to.. other friends are busy.... but little did i realsie that.. so is him...yap! i m really sorry if i hurt him...... i really have no intension! hai~!.. really feel bad!.... i really want4ed to talk to someone !!! WHO!??????!?????? anione ... just talk to mi!!!! oh ya... pig! -> if u are free.. just call mi ok ?? i just need someone to pull mi up.. ehn i m down.. htough i really didn't help u much when u are down! sorry! but i done my best.....
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pig told mi abt how great jing li is when he tok to her that night.... hmmm.. yap... she is really a great mdm...... i mean frm the bottom of my heart i really do felt that... at least now pig knows who to turn to when he need help..... not someone who dunno wat to say ( thats mi! ) .. sorry , but i've done my best.....
...now..... wat goes down .. will go up.. pig is just as fresh as new .... he is highly motivated .. good for hiM! this fire of motivsation shall never end! JIA YOU!...
but now as for mi.. my fire is burning out soon.. real soon....... wat m i going to do? sit and wait for ppl to motivate mi ? or do it myself..... i dunno... i m still "blur" god bless yit hann! BLOG bless mi too!

to friends and PIG --> though i m down.. but if u all got anithing need help.. just call mi... i will try to help too.. maybe i will know wat to do to myself when i help..... maybe the ans lies there......maybe.... so just give mi a call!

BLOG ! meanwhile .. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love,
yit hann!

TRUTH!

2004-06-10T08:12:00.000-07:00

well.... i can't sleep if i never make this clear.. if the blog i've written makes things worse.. i havenothing to say.. coz the TRUTH ALWAYS HURT! ...

sorry blog....
love,
yit hann
muak!

patch ?

2004-06-10T07:57:00.000-07:00

i have a msn talk with kelvin yip.... he knew abt this things as i m so sad.. so i told mi loz.... he give mi a real good advice..... i post up to let blog and pig see..... may be he is right... may be i worng .. may be.. maybe...

¤¤þJÇ º4S²²»» I'll Be There For You says:

-one piece of advice: go snatch him back

-u know how those words can hurt others mah?<--his feelings...

-go patched up with him

-go take back your words

-about leaving him and all

-it's pure rubbish

-you need him..he needs you

-it's very understanddable..very obvious

-what is this "good for him"?

-go snatch him back now

-go tell him you are sorry...

thanks kelvin! i really treasure that advice!
love,
yit hann

BROTHER PIG ... I m sorry!

2004-06-10T06:11:00.000-07:00

Great ! i can't wait for today! after long hours of studying ( it seems more like day dreaming ) i finally get to see the st john peoples.. and that forever "black" bro pig. wat a great day to start by receivng a morning call from HUI TING @ 6.45 am. meow meow! despite that wake up call.. i still sleep for another 15 min... then i got ready to set off!
MEOW! i can't wait to have fun! i reached woodlands MRT control station punctually .. at 7.30 am sharp ( the meeting time) hahhaha i saw the whole groups of st john kids siting there as though waiting for their "mother" , which is hui ting.
argh! MY TUMMY cried for food!.. so i comb my bag for that pethectic coupon! god!haha i bought a turkey saugsage burger meal! YUMMY! but no eating in mrt statioN! stupid rule! but i stil share with the kids! so gald to see them !
but 1 major problem! !!!!! SOS ! our dear "little" ze ling is missing in actioN! he was late ~! where is he? no one got his number!ai yo!
so mdm hui ting decided to wait for him while i bring the rest of the kids to red hill! ARG!
i hate that location! its the place where i have my 2 years of IDOIT NCO camp there! EEEEEEEE - bukit merah secondary school! YAK!
hahhaha phobia.... we have fun on our journey there! was it total fun all the way? yes? no ?.... NO
there was a time bomb news... waiting to explode. the timer tick slowly as time passed... that news was abt to explode. GOD ! i should have just stay at home so that i will not be BOMBed by that time bomb!...( funnny language hor) hahha

NOT FUNNY!

:( :( :( ... time passes slowly... and we are still smiling... wow. we reached the RED hill station - finaly. the air was ever pure and seems so welcoming... ... HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM so refreshing. i just want to have more of this!!! come breeze .. come to me !

" YH! i tell u somthing hor..... yesterday i didn't really sleep la.. but i was talking to someone.." said pig.

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TIPS: yesterday i called gavin to ask him abt some contacts of the people. eg hui ting. coz my hp spoil and thus i lost al their HP number. but he told mi he wanted to sleep. and didn't give mi ani contact... to mi the contacts was urgent .. in case today i was late.. at least i can contact hui ting MA!.......
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" WHO!?" i raised my eyebrown.. expected him to tell mi that it was " U KNOW WHO"
"who? say la.... was it her?" i said cheeckily!
" it was a SHE , but not her.." he answered just as i was abt toguess which gal was it he said anxoulsly
"... its JIN LI mdm"

WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no number of EXCLAIMATION MARKS can express my feeling!!!!

the air is making mi PUKE! somany CARBON MONOXIDE !! I CAN"T BREATH! the air is so unpure now! it is so UNWELCOMING PLACE! going to BUKIT MERAH is always BAD LUCK FOR MI! POI!
i mean on one hand , i was sad in the sense that i was disappointed. as he choiced to talk to others instead of giving me the urgent contacts. on the other hand.. it was JINLI! ai yo! i dun hate that person .. but was so call.. scare of her for once.. she ACCUSE mi of saying bad things abt her school ( green ridge)during a competition.. which i dun really remember and even if i do.... it wasn't on intention... and EVEN *if it was....( i didn't and it wasn't) i didn't spread or shout out my comments to everyone..i was just having a leasuire converstion with my seniors! hai~!
i was to let by gone be by gone.... but .... the way hui shi and jacklynn told mi abt her was awful... they say " ORH!!!! U CHEM LIAO!! U "DE ZUI" her" ...... it sounds as though it was a hellish mistake!

BACK TO PIG!

.... i was angry! very ! very.. not so much(30%) because he talk to him but (70%) because he choose to talk on phone and refuse to give mi an urgent thingy! AI YA! I DUNNO LA! very siao now! now in the right mood! MOO MEOW!
i refuse to talk to him for the whole day.. till now loz... i even refuse to have direct eye contact with him.. i m pure angry! ARGH! ... luckily got hui ting beside mi to talk to mi.. to distract my attention. .hai~! ... the scar is still there even if u are not looking at it.....

just as i guessed... he was the duplicate of mi.... just like photocopy....( maybe for him.. his ink is too much. so balcker than mine) ... if u didn't talk to him.. he won't talk to u .... thats our policy.. i always agree on that theory .. but i always hate it when it is happening to mi! somtimes i really can understand how helpless jacklynn get when i do that to her...
KARMA!!!! KARMA !!!! now pig is doing this to mi.. hai~!....

. aniway.... the SANA course is doing well.. everyone in the hall pass.... and our JANET CHAI got the highest mark!!! SO PROUD OF HER!!! MEOW MEOW !!!!! congrates!

on the way home.... i didn't talk to him .... maybe we were waiting for each other to take the initaitive to start the topic.. but none of us do.. PARALLEL LINES DUN MEET!
but in the MRT.. i realised that for a long moment .... pig was alone..guess he was having problem with his grp of friends..... if the time bomb didn't explode ( in simple eng for gavin's sake coz i know he won't be ab;e to understand ...... if we didn't have conflict in the morning..) i would have gone there... the angel in my head is telling GO! but the devil in my head is telling mi NO! ... i choose the devil! so sorry!.... well.. thanks hui ting again .. she was siting beside mi accompanying mi.. iw as more fortunate in the sense that hui ting was there for mi..( but 3/4 of the time i was sleeping)

but gavin was alone!
how? i m worry too!
but wat can i do?
i m a stupid fooL!

... hai~!..... luckily i think when the train reached woodland... pig was perfectly fine with the rest.... if i'm not worng i saw them walking towards mac for lunch ? hahah i think so ba.... HUI TING wanted to go stamps in civic.. and iwantedt o go library to study... wow.. she finally agreed to accopany mi .. for 1 hour.. hahah its better than not.. haha wow! then outside the civic sentre.. we saw ZELING... moo!! he was again.. alone... watching the free sample show displayed outside.. hahaha we stood beside him.. so near that i can ever felt his sweat.. but he didn't realise that i was there.. then i sneezed..... 3 times... * it must be pig that was scolding mi .. i thnk so.. but after that.. abt 10 min or so.. he finally regconise us..... i gave him a can of coke light.... coz i can't finish it... ( dun worry .. its new cann la)_ ahaha

we went to library and sat beside a lady... we do our own stuff.. and hui ting ... as planned..... went off an hour later... THANKS ALOT! meow! hmm... i finished my MAS SPECTROMRTER notes and half of APGP.. then my stomach feel so... so so so hungry again.. so i wnet home .. god@ mum bought a huge packet of NASI BRUaNI....... so full now.. god! i m going to be fat...
oh yes.. in the library ., i sms gavin lots of time.. guess he is sleeping.. but ican't somfirm.. he might be angry with mi.. i apologoise to him ... lots of time.. hai~!..
so now here i m typing the story of my journey to bukit merah!
then gavin finally reply!!!!!

"hello....i was actuallysleeping just nowhow do you expect mi to reply? "

then i say sorry again.. then he say....

" can u tell mi why u shout at mi? can't i talk to anyone that i respect? do i have to ask your permission to talk to her until 2am???today in the hall when i there sitting with u guys if elt so unwelcome..once i walkaway and sit alone at e other side u all begin to laugh and joke around,,,do u know how i feel? i already feelso unwelsome here in st john ...why u have to do this ? can u tell me WADS UR PROBLEM? "

MY GOD !... this is probably the longest sms he typed to mi.. i was speechless at that moment ... ya.. he didn't need to ask i permission.... who m i to tell him who to talk to or who shouldn't... who m i ?
borther BEAR? BULL SHIT! its just a stupid useless character of mine... i m a nobody.. no one to him (or at least thats wat i think) ... ya.. maybe he was right . for once... i shouldn't control him.. i actually made the same mistake that jacklynn did to mi.... hai~!.... i'm a mirror of her.... pig, dun follow my footstep ! never! just stop right there and find ur own footstep..
i told him i will not bother him in the futeure animore.. i was very depress when is ay that....... i know it will be hard on us. but its the best way for mi not to hurt him animore..
he replied ..wads the problem? can u tell mi wats happening tou ? wat dun bother with mi in the future anymore? do u know how those words can hurt others mah? .. ya he was right! mmmmm i was .. once agin hurting him... but i hope this is the last and final times!

yea.... i know how much it hurts him.. as it hurts mi just as much....
i really care abt him..... more than my own blood brother... i dunno la........ give mi sometime.. i maynot be in the right stead of mind now.. sorry if there is anithing ... sorry!!!!!!!! good night blog.. its a long and teary day today !hope tomorrow is better.... right bro pig?

love,
yit hann

* ps.... thanks Xiao chuan for helping mi to register the blog.. coz i m a newbi here... hahha

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